Rachel

2008-12-30T09:38:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!

I know i have not been updating this blog for sometime..really sorry about that.. I know i have repeating myself but my work is kinda very busy so can't really update regularly..hope you all can understand..^^

Ok,some updates..I went to Bangkok on the 19 Dec 08 and came back on the 23rd Dec 08..not bad..have a great time shopping but mostly is buying for my family and my colleagues(they asked me to help them buy)..Life there as per normal,no riot or things like that.. get some really cheap things there..get that kind of satisfaction..especially the manicure and pedicure..so nice and only total of $16 for both!! But too bad I think it won't be able to last till Chinese New Year.. May need to spend money to do again ~~ sian~~

This year christmas eve went back to office to cler some stuff then went out with lynn and edric to watch Ip - man..really a nice show..kinda funny..went back around 11pm to wait for my mahjong kaki to come.. they came around 1 plus,i almost fell asleep..but on that day everyone seem really tired so not really in the mood to play..so sleepy..we played until around 6am,all of us surrender..

Actually my office is closed from 22 Dec 08 till 5 Jan 09 but I have been coming back to office to clear alot of things so it don't really seem like a holiday to me lor..waste my leave..Yesterday was the worst day throughout my days in Sales team.. I was too so angry with someone who doing things at his own sweet time.. I have already told him to check something before i left to Bangkok but when i'm back nothing was done..called him and asked,he actually answered:"oh,i didn see your mail. Later when i free then check lor" Is just a very simple thing and he actually drag for 2 weeks!!OMG!!Frankly speaking, I'm really very piss off with this person.. He sure have some attitube problem and have not been really responsible for his work..or maybe my post is too low to speak to him..~ARGH~ He really spoilt my whole day..My blood pressure sure shoot up alot after everything i talked to him.. and vomitting blood at the same time..i really cannot take it yesterday.. I feel really frustrated..a small little thing which can be settled within a day and i actually took so long and not yet settle!! My customer have been chasing me after for alot of things until none they are able to complete yet..keep calling and ask and ask, nothing is done!!Is there problem with my work performance or what?? so many things i can't even settle..now is still in the office waiting for them to forward me a email which i asked him to forward me yesterday!!really a waste of time..i wanna finish fast and leave..i did not sleep much yesterday night..sleep at 12 plus in the morning and wake up at 2.44am staring at the space cannot sleep..keep thinking whether can i finish the things by today anot..only able to sleep around 4 plus but was awaken by my mum at 6 plus..anyway i also need to prepare to go to work.. thinking to go office at a later time but my colleague,Claudia, said since i already wake up just go early..luckily these two days,she is with me in the office..if not yesterday i might just breakdown by all that rubbish.. I really hope i can faster finish all these..really..is there anyone who can help me to get the person's butt move!!

Claudia is going to finish her work soon but me??still waiting for that stupid email!! what time can i leave today??

When office reopen on the 5 Jan 09,I'll be busy preparing for the tradeshow which is from 12 - 16 Jan 09..only a week to prepare..hope we can rush out everything..think need to OT again..can earn more money!!

Ok la,ending here liao!! The email just came in!!YEAH!!

Take care everyone!!Happy New Year!!

Bye Bye!!

2008-09-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

Updating again....

here i am..updating this blog again...

Busy busy busy..this is what i always said in my post...but i'm really busy ar!!!
hahahahah...sometime i just seemed to have too much things to remember...my memory is not that good so all these is actually stressing me up..

For example today,one of my customer calling me on my handphone then after a few second another customer ccalling me on my office number..then my colleague call me and said the delivery is calling her to find me...oh my god...at that point of time.. my mind went blank..what customer is telling me on the phone,is not going in my mind..i keep asking the customer to repeat what she said as my mind not working even normal conversation seem unable to register in..i think the customer did feel a little weird as i don't seem to understand what she talking about.. i notice that too..but..i can't help it..so trying to cut the conversation short..

Working 7 days is kinda tired and fun too..going back to retail once again is something i wanted last time..work with my retail colleagues again is some thing that i really miss..really miss the time i worked with them last time...
But i notice my product knowledge is not updated..when working in retail during weekend,alot of things i do not know about the new products...is actually quite frusstrating...from knowing everything to know only certain thing is making me very frustrating..every single thing have to ask my colleagues..

Finally my tradeshow with my customers is over..the tradeshow havce added on to my work load...alot of things to prepare..i'm so glad that is over.. now just busy about the indent order which they are going to placed..seem like almost every post i have been talking about my work...hahahaha..now talk about something else..

Last friday we celebrate lue birthday...went to raffles city for dinner then went to ting house to play majong..hmm...at first fer should be joining us but end up because of some misunderstanding she went back home instead of joining us...We played majong until 5 plus then lue friend brian drive me and her back home.. really thank him alot..help me save on my taxi fare...only manage to win 8 bucks.. but at least did not lose is good enough...i don't have luck in winning big money,everytime is just win some amount..but really have fun time with lue,ting,li and jan..have been sometime we play majong together liao ar... How time flies...i know ting when i'm 7 years old,know li at 10 years old and jan,fer and lue at 11 years old... we have been good friends since primary school..more than 10 years liao...all of is 21 yrs old this year....WOW...getiing old sia...looking back at the primary school picture brought back alot of memories...we look so funny when we are in primary school..nerd..hahahahaha...

ok la,going to sleep liao..tomorrow still working..bye bye!!take care everyone!!

*to all my dearest friend~i may not always calling or messaging you all but in my heart i still remember all of you and love you all always!!!anything can still call me!!
Bomber..faster decide on a date to meet up la..clubbing or dinner also can...^^

2008-08-13T17:13:00.002+08:00

Hello!!!

Hi guys..i know i have not been updating my blog much and alot of people said is gathering spiderweb now.

I'm really sorry but I was really busy for almost the whole month and also next month.. Alot of things to settle at work..going crazy at times.. and from next week onwards, I'll be working part time job too..so wekday i'll be working on office then weekend will be at retail..Hahahaha..seem like my life just can't leave without retail..so i'll be working 7 days a week... Sorry guys,I might not be able to meet up with you all often..you can still meet me after work if you really wanna meet me.. I'll be free after work..

I really hope I can go for another hoilday.. greedy rite.. just went not long but dying for another one..Don't know why..i'm really tired.. feel like resting again.. before I collapse..hahahaha..

Did not manage to rest well these few days...so it make me even feel more tired.. making alot of mistake at work..shit..someday will really get some serious scolding..alot of event coming up..cannot afford to make another error again.. WAKE UP RACHEL LIM!!!!!!!!!hahahahaha...

Bombers!!Heard that we will be meeting up soon rite!!So long didn see all of you!! waiting to do some catching up with you all...all must come k!!

*I know is painful for you but you will understand in the future..trust me.. Jia you ba!!(This is what i sent to you but you did not received)

Ok la,kana caught by my sister and colleague that i'm blogging..gonna stop now.. Bye Bye!!!

2008-07-02T18:31:00.002+08:00

Frustration!!

I hate to say this but i have to admit that,I feel like i'm a totally nobody in the office.I have this strong feeling when i was in the meeting today. I feel so not needed in the meeting as when i tried to say something,will be cut off. That's irritating. Then when is time for next meeting and we still could not finish, my boss say I can stay there as I was not key person in the meeting..so in the sense i was not needed. SO WHY ASK ME TO ATTEND? As the meeting carry on,the warehouse delivery issue was brought up. This incident I have inform and explain to my manager before the meeting and when the incident happened i wxplain to her too. When this matter brought up,she said actually she do not really understand what happened. I was really shock as I explain to her twice and ask her do her understand what i'm saying,she say she do. So I was thinking,do I have a problem of making myself clear or she was not really listening to me 100%.. When in the meeting people talk or ask about inside sale thing, all of them was looking at my colleague only. I was like invisible.
Seriously speaking,I do feel like i was not needed at all. My colleague can handle every single thing and moreover not all things I was told including problem with customer-I don't even know until when it was mention in the meeting. I was like doing all those small small things only-making calls,key orders etc..
I'm not angry with anyone but just kinda frustrated about myself(why did I make myself in this kind of situation)I have never feel so "nobody" before. That kind of feeling "actually you don't really needed here" is making me feel frustrated. I'm havinga serious thought am I suitable in this job?who knows..
Whatever.I'm just waiting for my holiday that's all..

2008-06-24T13:59:00.003+08:00

HEELLLOOO....!!!!!!!!!!!!

It have been some time since i last updated..Sorry guys..cos alot of work to do so really too busy to update..
Things is kinda fine for me now..finally able to cope with the work load...but i still have alot of things to learn..really alot...I will be having my own customer accounts soon..Hope everything will be fine and i won't cause any trouble that my poor colleague have to help me "clean my butt".

I do not know whether everyone know about this or not..I did not message anyone or call anyone and talk about this so don't think that "Wa,Rachel don't treat me as her friend anymore,did not call me and tell me about this". I feel that this type of things do not need to purposely call everyone and tell.. When i see you i'll update you.. hmm..But now i'm really kinda busy so decided to use blog to tell all of you..
Terrence and I broke up. I'm fine,don't worry about me... Terrence is fine too i think..hahahaha..He's much better now so everyone don't need to worry about us... Both of us doing fine now..

I'll be going Thailand on 12 July 08 so anyone need me to help him/her buy anything please drop me a message..I really hope that day will come faster..really need some rest now.. Mentally tired.. August i might be going Rendang too...If really can go i'll be very happy too... 1 more holiday trip!!!

That's all for now i think..i'm too tired to think of anything else to write.. Maybe i'll update again when i come back from Thailand...hahaahaha... I try..no promise.. ^^

Take care everyone!!!miss ya!

2008-04-20T19:11:00.003+08:00

HELLO!!!!

It has been a long time since i last updated my blog...

Hmm..there are somes changes in my life for these few months...But some actually i don't know is that good or bad....

I'm not working at Crocs Vivo City anymore...I'm now working at Crocs office!!! Working as inside sale specialise...

Everyone will sure say its good to go office and work...BUT i really really really miss my retail life and my colleagues...i miss them all..!!!Not saying that office is not good,but is not really what i like...i don't like keep one whole day sitting there and facing the computer...i don't like everyday there's meeting and chasing people for order or money...Actually just wanted to give it a try of office life but don't seem to to like it now...i don't think they will release me and let me go back retail that easy...

If time can turn back,i don't think i'll accept the offer...

2007-12-21T12:51:00.000+08:00

Time to update again!!!

Christmas coming!!!which mean i'm broke again...haiz...
Have been buying alot alot of presents..for friends and family... really hope my pay will come real soon...hahaha...i'm so broke that i can't buy any present for Terrence..

Now working at vivo is still ok beside the 2 persons i don't really like(Manager and supervisor)...Have been really busy these few weeks..they sale is like super good.. alot of thing sold out...is good that sale good but really very tired...hope that all these sale will help us to reach our target so i can get my commission...This month i won't be getting any..so hope for the next month...

My colleagues have been quite irritating these few days,now i know why kat will scratch them until like that..hahaha...cos they really deserve it... Yesterday jus wacked 2 of them...hahaha...i already told them to stop but still persist so i got no choice but to use FORCE...hahaha...i trapped both of them at the corner of the storeroom then keep pinching and beating them...my wrist was quite red cos 1 of them holding my wrist quite tight when i'm beating them...hahaha...actually it was quite fun...when i was beating them 1 of my colleagues video it down...but he refused to let me see..maybe afraid i will delete it off..

Will be going for a few christmas dinners this year..wonder will they have turkey... hahaha...yummy yummy...hahaha..sure get even fatter after christmas...hahaha...

ok la,going to stop here le..bye bye..update next time..

2007-11-18T02:46:00.000+08:00

Cleaning my blog......

I can see my blog start to have some dust...Haven't been update for weeks...I don't want my blog to be like Jennifer Twang's,DUST+SPIDER WEB+ROTTING+INSECT.... hahaha....

Ok,have been working at vivo for 18 days....everything seemed fine EXCEPT my supervisor...Almost make me vomit my blood out...ignore everyone's opinion.. making people starting to dislike her..trying to help her by giving some advise,you also simple ignore every single words coming out of my mouth...how irritating is that... Can't be bother to reply me at all...so i just simply ignore her too...hahaha... Do everything her way that she feel comfortable with..But not everyone feel the same as her..don't she understand that??? Not saying i'm bad or what, sometime she really do that's quite brainless and like to do double job..give her some opinion just can't be bother...Last time at marina square she's not like that but ever since she's at vivo..she changed...weird...Making my life at vivo more worse...

kind of sleepy now...update next time!!!take care everyone!!!

2007-10-28T15:46:00.000+08:00

Changes of my life....

Sorry for not updating for so long...is kinda busy for the pass 2 months..My workplace at marina square have expanded..so was busy ordering stock,set up the new store,unpacked stock etc..etc..so much thing to do..have to keep wroking overtime cos we have too little time but too many things to settle...ordering stock have cause me alot of headache..my store room have expanded around 4 times of my old storeroom..is really kind of big...All of the staff fork out money to buy a smal refrigerator and a microwave...haha..Our food always turned cold pretty fast cause our store is really really very cold...not kidding you at all...even wearing a jacket seemed like no use at all...
ok,saying about the changes right...There are 2 big changes..
Firstly,I'm being transfer to vivo city from the 1 nov onwards...sian rite??after putting so much effort to set up the store...i'm leaving the place...haiz..i'll miss my colleagues for sure..after all,i have work at marina square from around,1 year 6 months...

My best buddies
Joycelyn
Joey
Michelle
Caitong
Pegan
Huey min
Manfred
Freddy

I'll miss all of you!!

The 2nd big change is I'M MOVING HOUSE!!!!!oh my god,thought that things start to slow down a bit..can take a rest..now have to busy about moving house!!!what's the worse thing is i need to buy bed and cupboard myself!!!i have to pay for everything in my room...the rest...haha..will be pay by other people le...hmmm..who's like to buy me a house warming gift???haha...i intend to invite people to my housewarming... but no need to buy gift la..just kidding...BY THE WAY,I MOVING TO CHUA CHU KANG!!! far rite..but you all still have to come...haha..wait for my msg ba..hahaha...

k la,got to go le...taka having guess crazy sale!!going to take a look over there..my friend say is less than $50!!going shopping le..bye bye..

2007-10-14T11:57:00.000+08:00

Learn to appreciate things around you...

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her.
She told her boyfriend, "If I could only see the world, I will marry you."
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her.
When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.
He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'
The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.
Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'
This is how the human brain often works when our status changes.
Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word -
Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.
Today before you complain about life -
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children -
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep -
Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job -
Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another -
Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down -
Put a smile on your face and thank GOD you're alive and still around.

Always be considerate of others situation or feeling..never take anything for granted..before it's gone...

2007-09-16T11:17:00.000+08:00

Sickness..

Terrence have been sick for 4 days..keep having fever..For the 1st,3rd and 4th day i went over to his house to look after him...In the middle of the night,his fever will come back and the temper goes up which make me worried and hardly sleep the whole night..His temper like stock market,suddenly up,suddenly down...So have to keep check on him..Which resulted....MY BIGGER DARK CIRCLE!!!hahaha...anyway,I always have dark circle so does make any different too...

Now my eyes is feeling kind of sleepy..Now Terrence feeling better,reading story book..but don't know later will the fever be back..he finished his medicine but still haven't fully recover...I think later I'll bring him to see a doctor just in case at night his fever come back again and i'm not around...

Oh,you know why his temper goes up and down like stock market??Thanks to the Macdonald double cheese burger,Sakae Sushi and 1 chocolate fondue that he ate(some he ate it when i'm not around).. hahaha...I think if i force him to eat porridge is like killing him???hahaha..really hope he will get well soon and eat plain!!!

ok,gonna catch some sleep 1st... (My background music " Terrence's Zzz sound") He sleep faster than i finish a post...hahaha...Take care everyone!!!take good care of your health..drink more water!!!

2007-08-26T17:06:00.000+08:00

Relaxation....

Just have my 5 days break from my work...took a few days of annual leave to relax a bit..cos have been kind of stressed up before that..hope now have a better mood to go back to work..

I spent everyday with Terrence during my leave...hahaha..he took leave too so that we can spend time together..We went to malaysia with manfred and huey min..We have our lunch over there..the food is very cheap and nice...We ordered around 6 to 7 dishes..mostly seafood..each person like paying S$20..inclusive of drinks..We ate to our fullest..Must go back there next time..After meal,we went to the shopping centre near by...actually nothing much to shop...a bit bored...the price not very cheap either..almost like singapore price...so didn't buy any clothes from there...

The following day,we went to swim at tampines swimming complex...Haven't swim for quite some time so a bit slow...hahahathen terrence keep asking me to continue to swim,cannot stop...like my personal trainer...The worse part is he threw me into the 1.8 area there...i was like going crazy...struggling for myself...i told him before i don't dare to swim at 1.8 area there cos i was drowned before at that area...He said have to overcome my fear then just dump me in...i was kind of angry cos i'm really scare...i know i have to overcome my fear but not like immediately overcoming it...give me some time...When he dump me in,i was like a crazy woman struggling for her life...even the swimmers at the side of the pool was laughing at me as my hair was covering my face..i can't really see what's infront but keep swimming to the side until i hold on to something...is kind of embarrassed..

Now able to overcome the "1.8" fear a bit...will try harder the next time..i hope.. Now i will feel like going swimming now and then...I was crazy about swimming when i was young but not so much when i grew older..so now decided to train up a bit.. even Terrence dump me in again,i won't be scare at all..JIA YOU!!!

The next day,we went to bugis for shopping and movie...end up Bugis don't have "License to wed" so we walk to suntec for movie..the show is quite funny but is a bit short..around 1 and a half hr??not more than that...

Now Terrence is having sunburn almost his whole body...you can't even touch his shoulder,he will scold you for sure...hahaha...even when he is eating,his face will be painful...so avoid any physical contact with him...hahaha...Oh..his burn did not get when he went swimming with me,is when he went swimming with his friends... Before anyone of you thought that i was burned too...This time round,he swimmed longer with his friend and did not apply any suntan oil that's why get burned...Hope that he will get better soon...:-)

Ok la,update next time...meeting up with bombers real soon..i wll bring my sun block over too..haha...WE GOING TO SENTOSA!!!

*Terrence*
Happy 1 n half year anniversary!!!!hahaha...

2007-08-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

You won't understand..........

Not really in a good mood recently,ever since my brother want me to send my dog away..Last sunday,Terrence accompany to Mr Chua's house to pass him my dog..I thought I'll b ok..But in fact I'm not..I played with her at Mr Chua's house for around 2 hours...When i was about time to leave,my heart started to feel the pain..The way she looked at me when i leave,i can never forget that face...I kept crying non-stop ever since i step out of that house...When i leave,she stood at the door step looking at me..She wanted to follow me but Mr Chua hold her back...Then she can just stand there and at me when i walk off...It really hurt me alot alot...I feel i'm so cruel.. Leaving her at a strange place..I really can't bear to leave her..but i have no choice...No one in the family support me..I can only cry and cry..

Next day,I message Mr Chua to see how is she..He said she's ok,finish her food..still very active...she even jumped on him in the morning...I'm relieved to hear that she's ok..But I still missed her alot..I really wonder does she miss me??I cried everyday...But knowing her is ok and Mr Chua have a dog too so she have a company to play with her..And maybe next time she will get pregnant..I just treat her like getting married to Mr Chua's dog..

Yesterday read Terrence's blog,actually quite touched...It actually make my mood feel better..much better...

~To Terrence~

I really appreciate everything that you do..i really do..I'm very touched when I see your blog..Standing up for me...I'm very thankful that you were there when i gave ting ting away...If not i really don't know what to do.. Sorry if I have make you suffer recently...My mood wasn't very stable..I won't say about "the meeting or not" topic again..Sorry to have you stressed up..I waiting for your break to come...both of us can relax a bit...you are quite tired recently because of your deployment...jia you!!After that you can have your break.. and i'll stop my complaining...hahaha..:-)Lastly,really thank you alot alot...love you..

After my dog have gone,I find it hard to face my family especially my brother and sister-in-law...I keep thinking the way they force me to give my dog away...I tried to forget about it but i can't...never really talk to them ever since they want me to give my dog away cos the baby is out soon...staying at home seemed like torturing me...Feeling so sad inside my heart but still have to pretend nothing at work.. really don't feel like smiling or talking...What make it worse when i see my manager and he kept giving me attitube...His attitube have lasted around a month..I really don't know what i do,he refused to talk to me..treat me like a stranger..I really have enough of all these...Whatever he want me to do,I already done it...It was like one night then he change his attitube toward me..I don't gave a damn on this anymore...Anyway my life is quite suck,additional of 1 more thing doesn't make any different too...

"Listen to your heart,although is on the left,is always right."One of my friend told me this..Ya,is quite true...But sometime is so hard to do what your heart told you to do..In your life,is so hard to find someone that will understand how you feel.. really...Everyone will ask you to understand them but not one will come forward to understand you...When every part of your life is wrong,you don't know where you belong..What you treasure the most in the past,maybe the one that kill you now... Memories healed and killed people at different point of time..If you don't understand,when you try it you will know..But of course,i won't hope this type of thing to happen on you...haha...

I think this post is long enough right...hahaha...ok,I'll update next time when i have a chance...Hope next time will be good things..take care evryone!!!

*Thank for everyone who tag my blog...I know you all are concerned about me,don't worry i'm ok!!!I'll find time to meet you all...I missed all of you!!is good to know all of you is here for me..:-)
Welcome to my blog..especially van and joker(although i don't know wh you are)*

2007-07-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

Headache....

Hmm...have not been updating for some time...Anybody missed me???hahaha...i know you all do..:-pNow notice that actually working at crocs is not that easy as i imagine..haha..i know i said this is kind of a bit weird as i worked there for about 1 year plus...
Now as a full timer,more and more responsibilities...making me feeling stressed.. ordering stock and handling customer feedback..believe me is not a easy task... Anything related to customer is never easy..what the worse thing is our target have increased..i find it a bit like impossible to hit..haha..But no matter what must give my best shot...Must order alot of stock to meet the customer demand at the same time cannot overload my store room...hmm.. how am i going to do that???Have been thinking about it...Have some unhappy things with my colleague...haiz.. never mind can think of a way to solve..
Watched the transformers and die hard 4.0 with Terrence..is really quite nice.. Transformers quite touching,almost cry out...hahaha..
next week seem a bit busy...My off days almost reserved by others...haha..never mind..long time meet up with my friend...
ok la,going out with Terrence soon...update next time...:-)

2007-06-20T12:40:00.000+08:00

Pimples!!!!

How anulucky can i get???Having 6 pimples at one go???My face look like monster with 6 pimples!!!!sad sad sad....Don't know how to face terrence..haha..later scare him off ar...Sorry that didn't update my blog regularly..Because of my work lor..quite busy..
Yesterday is like my bad day..My mp3 like siao siao then i send it for a check..The person nothing serious..just have to run through the software...THEN END UP??All my songs GONE...GONE GONE GONE...I'm so depressed..ALL GONE mean i have to upload all the songs again..i spend alot of time uploading the songs in..Sobs..
At night,i found out my bear which terrence give me as my anniversary present is gone!!!i turn my shop upside down to find..but still cannot find it..This even make me more depressed...No more mood for anything...I REALLY REALLY like that bear...I don't even know where i lost it..How stupid i am..Don't even know where it lost...

K la,update some other time le...got to go to work...bye bye..

Happy Anniversary Terrence!!!

2007-05-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

My super big dark circle and eye bag!!!!

My dark circle have expanded..sad...morning when make up even the concealer cannot cover up my dark circle...how sad is that man...sobs..the eye bag also getting bigger too...Haiz..Don't know why cannot sleep well..keep thinking about alot of thing..my mind like so tried..lack of rest..sometime will suddenly stone when serving customer..haha..not smiling recently..so my service not really that good..haha..but so far no complain yet..hope not..

I really hope someone can cure me..but the person not curing me..sad..haha..i doubt the person know i having this problem..

I really must know how to save money..so old,still no much saving..hahaha..i'm waiting for this month pay to come!!!haha..6 more days...i'm waiting...

Nothing much to update..update next time...bye bye...take care...

2007-05-03T20:42:00.000+08:00

Deaf...deaf..deaf..

Have been sick these two days..it's like kiling me but still have to work as not enough staff...Luckily manage to go throgh..keep eating medicine to stop the fever from coming back..sore throat,fever,running nose which lead to my ear seem to have infection..keep feeling a sharp pain..haiz..Tomorrow finally is my off day..able to rest a bit..didn't go and see a doctor as want to save money..haha..cause i see my bank figure going down but don't know where it goes so better cut down..haha..ok la,going to work le,snatch my manager laptop and update a bit..haha..he was watching a show but have to wait till i finish then he can use..take care everyone..bye bye..

2007-04-30T17:16:00.000+08:00

My life...

Have not been updating the blog for quite some time..after graduation working full time at crocs..(please don't suddenly all haunt me for discount!!!hahaha)
Recently learning how to save money..must have some saving for future..Who know what going to happen..At first,life after graduation not very smooth but now starting to get better..Everyday after work is already half dead so no time to think of anything..so days like passing quite fast..don't know whether is that good or bad..haha...Sorry to those who i can't meet out..i really trying to meet out some of you..
For xian,sorry that didn't manage to celebrate your birthday with you..We try to meet out k..Anyway wish you a very very very happy belated birthday..Anything can call me k..
As for me and Terrence,everything is going fine..He's the same,always busy..haha.. but he did manage to spend some time with me..Never seen him so hardworking before..during school time,he never study as hard as in NS..haha...He getting good grade for his exam in Combat Medic..was kind of surprised at first..but happy for him..at least thing is going well for him..
K la,gonna stop here le..Take care everyone!!

True love is like a spirit,not everyone seen one,only those who see believe that it exist..but those who don't see cannot really deny it's existance..

2007-03-28T14:51:00.000+08:00

UPDATE!!UPDATE!!

Now i'm updating my blog cause seem like people complaining i didn't update for a long time..haha..

Have been working since graduted from ITE..Actually feeling a bit of lost for a period of time..Should i keep staying at sale line??Alot of people keep asking me to change my job..get a better one..Office work don't really interest me seriously but i really feel like finding a 5 day job..So i can be free on weekend and spend more time in church and with terrence..But say is easy..find is hard..If anyone got work to introduce message me k..haha...

Terrence already POP..finish the tekong training..But he was posted to combat medi.. He keep grumble ever since he knew..He said is quite tough inside so hopefully he can finish the training successfully for these 3 months and will post to a better unit after that..I think the worse for me is that he have to stay in there..only out on weekend..haiz..same when he's in Tekong..i still think when he's out is better like 8-5 timing..easier to meet..But no differetn now..sad..
But is ok,what most concerned to me is he can finish the training safely..he keep falling sick recently..kind of worried for him..And don't know how is he doing inside the camp..Hope everything is fine..Haven't seen him 4 days since he's in camp..Actually already quite used to it..haha..Anyway i already receive 3 months of training of not seeing him often..haha..waiting for this weekend to come..hehe..I have to organise my time..to match my work and not affecting to go service and able to meet Terrence(love him!!)..have to do some planning..

Long time never see my bombers..wonder how you all doing...haha...seriously la,don't lost contact with each other can or not..show some concern to each other la..haha..Not forgetting the rest of my friend..YOU ALL!!(YOU!the one reading my blog!!)If you just a passer-by..THEN..hi,the above message don't really apply to you..haha..But mostly should be only my friend reading my blog..i'll try to meet up with you all k??haha..take care everyone..

I think have been a long time i didn't say this to you dear..I love you..muackz!! YOU ALSO LONG TIME DIDN'T SAY TO ME AR..EHEM..YOU SHOULD KNOW WHAT TO DO..haha...
BYE BYE EVERYONE!!!TAKE CARE!!!

2007-03-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

Finally over..i have completed my ite education..any more further studies,i'm not sure..i still in a mess...my heart also very messy too..am i wrong to do that..I really hope that you can understand how i feel..but i think you never will..to say the truth i never feel secure for the past 1 year plus..why there's no sense of secure???Where do i stand??Actually what's the point talking about this...
Now started working..i'm feeling very tired..maybe is accumulated from exam period till now..that's why so tired..sleep sleep sleep..this all i want...nothing else matters..Anyway alot of thing is not within my control..so just let it be..
And hope that after graduation i hope all of my friend will still keep in contact with me!!!(bombers,ISC and all friends from ite)All the best to you all!!
Chalet coming...after chalet don't know when will see you all again...

Hope that we can enjoy ourselves..cheers...

Bye bye..

2007-03-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

Today is Interact Club's installation,which is mean I'm officially step down from my post.I thought today should be a happy day but don't really turn out to be..can say whatever i do all went wrong..Not just the installation..my studies too..

In the morning went to submit my application form to Mrs Heng but was decline as she said my grade is not good enough..I was told that even below 3 still can try to apply but not i can't even try..She told me to wait for my this coming exam result see how then apply for the next intake.. which mean 1 year later??I'm going to waste my 1 year just like that?

Then I wanted to print out my project during AOA lesson but printer spoilt..so i went to my CDP teacher,MRS JEAN YEO,to ask her help me to print my project as my house don't have printer and lab printer is spoilt too..She say she cannot help me..asked me to go to other class to print.. Then i said other class teacher won't let me in as i'm not their student..She said "YA" and walk off..SO??i don't hand in ar??Whatever shit la..just a few weeks more want to give me attitube..i don't give a damn..not just she have attitube,i also have..moreover now i so angry..

Before installation want try the singing rehearsal again before the event start but hardly have any chance. But when i have the chance, most of the new BODs forget what we plan the day before.I keep asking them to stand by their place but some like anyhow stand..The day before i already get scolded by teacher because we didn't sing very well and i'm in charge of this section..After spending so much time rehearsing with them,they didn't follow on the actual day???Oh my god...I almost explode..But what more worse come next..And by the way,when actual singing time,the performance is like shit..feel like digging a hole and hide my head in.. Even the old BODs went wrong too..wanni and joanna have different moves when both of them must be the same...so the rest behind go haywire..wanni moves so fast..she really cannot dance or performance things like that..not saying that i'm bad but this is really not her strong point..didn't expect her just swing together also cannot..I can say that i'm really very angry at time point when new BODs forget and didn't do what they supposed to do and wanni keep nagging at me saying so difficult and messy this and that..when last minute,everyone keep complain this and that ..this is not the worse yet..what worse comes next..

The cd i gave teacher to play went haywire too so teacher asked me to pass her my thumbdrive , try to play it on laptop..After that i was like SO SO SO busy..really very busy..i have to entertain my sister..do this and that..It was raining very heavily too,i got myself wet on the way home but can't be bother much as i'm too tired to move..When i reach home want to do my frontpage project,i realise teacher never return me my thumbdrive!!i saved my everything inside..i got so panicked...i called my teacher,she didn't pick up the phone..Mrs goh helped me out by trying to contact that teacher too but also failed..after that the teacher called me said she left the thumbdrive at Mrs Quek's table..Shouldn't she return me??i have my name on my thumbdrive..I was still thinking if she bring home i go to her house and take from her..But now can forget it..School is already locked by then...Now i'm stuck in no where...i'm really very tired..................really very very tired....Can you understand how i feel??How tired i am?? My final year project...haiz...gone..

2007-02-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

1 year anniversary!!!!

Today is our 1 year anniversary..kind of fast..already a year..Last time when i heard people saying they are together for a year, i'll feel like is very long but now don't actually feel that way..have been thinking about how this year passed..1st day together, argument,sadness,happiness..how much we have went through..etc.. sound like a old lady ar..haha..is really not a easy way..I don't know for him is it this way but for me is not easy..haha..should not go in more detail..Have i been a good girlfriend for this whole year??haha..i think this can be answer by him only..Actually did notice something i don't know the rest of you got notice this thing or not..His blog never mention about our life before??haha..not a entry about us or me..Alot of his friends don't know that he is attached i think only a few months ago..They were so shock when he introduce me to them..haha..you all should see their expression..kind of funny..There's always something in my heart making me confused..anyway is just not a good feeling..Did i over-estimated myself? Sometime i do feel so..Over-estimated alot of things..hahaha..stop saying all these..should say about something nice..
Today went to Terrence house to pass him something then we went for dinner at Sakae Suahi at whitesand..no much celebration la..just a simple dinner..Then he book in lor..hmm..we seemed to go on a simple style on everything..haha..if he like it simple then let it be simple..Today is celebrating our anniversary and belated valentine day..These few day i'm very happy can spend time with him from Chinese New Year first day til today..time with him is something is very special and difficult to get..like i said before he's a very busy person..So this few days is kind of a bonus ba..haha..
Just receive a messenge from my friend asking me if i like someone who have a girlfriend what will you do??Since you know the person have a girlfriend then stay far far away from him..In this world he's not the only guy..If you all really meant to be,in the end will still be together.. But for now don't get in between other people relationship..This is not the first someone have asked this question..why keep asking me this question??haha..what do you all think??i'm curious what others will think..I know there are people who will say as long as you haven't get married you still can choose..BUT now in this society even if you are married you still can get divorce so what you define someone is not available anymore??There are always martial affair..so what's love?? Opinion please..Love should not exist the fear of betray??should not exist temptation from the outside??heart should only have 1 person no space for others..??What do you think??hahha..give me your comment..
I think alot of girls have notice something going very rare now....FAITHFUL GUY..i tell you is as rare as dinosaur..seriously la..not joking..IF YOU ALREADY FOUND HIM EVEN THOUGH HE'S A BIT BLUR,ALSO DON'T LET GO!!!YOU KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT..you can say you have find a treasure that alot of girls is finding..isn't it stupid to let go??Faithful is not just by saying--"Verbally faithful" Faithful is something verbally and action must tally..said one thing then do another,slowly girl will get irritated..verbally faithful can only last a while..so don't let the guy sweet talk and fly away..must see the action also..just used a mouth and say,who don't know..ACTION is very important..Action is a way of expressing your love..Even if you don't say,action can prove..BUT it don't work vice versa..Not saying you no need sweet talk a bit..TALK + ACTION = PERFECT MATCH..one missing the power is not as good as having two le..haha..
Happy 1 year Anniverary Terrence..Hope you can see this but I know is very rare you will visit my blog..Anyway i still want to say HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY AND I ENJOY THESE DAYS WITH YOU RUSHING TO PEOPLE'S HOUSE COLLECT "HONG BAO" .I ENJOY TODAY DINNER AND EATEN TO MY FULLEST..AND YOU ALSO HAVE SETTLE THE BILL...HAHAHA.. THANKS FOR THE DINNER...If possible the next anniversary it will be on me..i promise.. love you..

2007-02-14T17:43:00.000+08:00

Sweet valentine or bad valentine??

Today is Valentine day,actually i expect it should be a happy occasion but it didn't really seemed so..sorry gals..See most of you were unhappy today..GUYS!!!where your brain go??i thought that what guy always do,"use the brain think,be practical" and gals are,"use heart and feel, emotional".And now can you all use your BRAIN and think of the gal's heart and feeling. Always said can't you just used your brain and think??NOW why can't you all use your brain and think for us??WE say out of course is something really upsetting us if not you think we so free to find quarrel ar??You want us to understand then can you all try to understand us too??Before you all put on a shield and fight back.REALLY..understanding is needed here..girls are fragile.. Handle with care please..Once broken,considered gone...

To everyone,don't ever said this or similar things to me: "Use your brain and think,Rachel" i'll certainly PISSED OFF...Don't asked me why, i just hate it..In fact,i did think before i said anything..i'm not the one not thinking and understanding..this point i'm sure..

Previously is not really totally about me..most is about my friends..For me,Terrence is at Tekong so no need to talk about celebration..Our 1st Valentine Day is like that passed..i'm ok with it cause this is nothing that both of us can do..NS..cannot run de..haha..anyway i'm used to it le.. Alone is also not a bad thing either..haha..Any make-up celebration?i don't think so..

Terrence gave me a cross stitch handphone pouch made by him..and a paperweight (2 bears and a heart inside)This is my..Birthday present?Valentine Day?or our 1 year Anniversary present??hmm...he never mention,just asked me to think...i think is all of the above..haha..if i never guess wrong..i'll treasure the handphone pouch..thanks..What i want more is not present is he can accompany me more when he is out..but is so hard..haha..but is ok now..

Bombers is back together again..all arguement solve between us...finally...really happy to see all together again..

These few days is so so so so bad for me...ever since the grad nite..projects coming date due.. Installation powerpoint until now still cannot finish..going to kill by teacher for sure.. marketing presenting this fri,haven't complete yet..working on fri and taking my dog to vet too..thurs, installation rehearsal...still some accessories to complete..i have been dragging for some time..my friend going to kill me soon.. forget to say,i'm starting up a small business with my friends..selling accessories..if you all are free can go and view maybe will see something you will like...curiocity06.blogspot.com...then on top of all this stupid shit still quarrel with people..what the fuck.. everthing is killing me..really i can just sleep and die...everything around me killing me or feeling so stress up..feel like finding a place to rest..just me alone..all i want is really people to understand me especially those who i care..Stop asking me to understand you all when i already have given all my understanding and giving way to you all all this time...i'm very tired..is it about time i getting some understanding too???Let's don't be selfish person...cause i hate selfish person..

ok la,ending here..still have powerpoint to complete and haunting people for photo...bye..

2007-02-06T14:26:00.000+08:00

A funny Story...

One day I met a sweet gentleman and fell in love.When it became apparent that we would marry, I made the supreme sacrifice and gave up beans.Some months later, on my birthday, my car broke down on the way home fromwork. Since I lived in the countryside I called my husband and told him that I would be late because I had to walk home. On my way, I passed by a smalldiner and the odor of baked beans was more than I could stand. With miles to walk, I figured that I would walk off any ill effects by thetime I reached home, so I stopped at the diner and before I knew it, I had consumed three large orders of baked beans.All the way home, I made sure that I released all the gas.Upon my arrival, my husband seemed excited to see! me and exclaimeddelightedly: "Darling I have a surprise for dinner tonight." He thenblindfolded me and led me to my chair at the dinner table. I took a seat andjust as he was about to remove my blindfold, the telephone rang.He made me promise not to touch the blindfold until he returned and went toanswer the call.The baked beans I had consumed were still affecting me and the pressure was becoming most unbearable, so while my husband was out of the room I seizedthe opportunity, shifted my weight to one leg and let one go. It was not only loud, but it smelled like a fertilizer truck running over askunk in front of a pulpwood mill. I took my napkin from my lap and fanned the air around me vigorously. Then, shifting to the other leg, I ripped offthree more. The stink was worse than cooked cabbage.Keeping my ears carefully tuned to the conversation in the other room, Iwent on like this for another few minutes. The pleasure was indescribable. When eventually the telephone farewells signaled the end of my freedom, Iquickly fanned the air a few more times with my napkin, placed it on my lap and folded my hands back on it feeling very relieved and pleased withmyself.My face must have been the picture of innocence when my husband returned, apologizing for taking so long. He asked me if I had peeked through theblindfold, and I assured him I had not. At this point, he removed the blindfold, and twelve dinner guests seated around the table chorused:"Happy Birthday!"I fainted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-05T10:39:00.000+08:00

Birthday coming.....Present coming in too...haha..

Yesterday receive presents from my colleagues...haha...i was not working yesterday,they called me and tell me i need to go down and sign some documents...quite urgent so i rush down in the afternoon...To my surprise,they prepared birthday present for me!!!!i was so shocked..almost going to cry..haha..This is what they gave me:

Freddy(Manager):2 crocs keychains and $20 hongbao
Michelle(Supervisor):A Puma hand bag
Cai tong and Ah Liao(colleague):1 hand bag (for graduation nite)
Pegan and joycelyn (colleague):1 wall shop's wallet and a keychain

Thanks guys!!!i love all your presents..This friday i'm going out bombers after grad nite..hang out with ting as long time never see her le...kind of miss her...haha...
i think Terrence won't have the time to celebrate my birthday..or maybe he forget about it as he said he will be busy this coming weekend when he book out...so can only meet for dinner..he book out on friday but friday i having graduation dinner..Sunday i'm working..he said sat and sun not sure free or not.. haiz..did he forget that is my birthday??my birthday is tomorrow but he is in army so cannot celebrate..weekend book out he also not free..-_- Forget it...don't celebrate lor..

2007-02-01T09:21:00.000+08:00

Realise..

After reading your blog,i don't know we are such a bad friend to you.I tried my best to solve all these but end up??we seem like making suffer like hell..This is what you wrote in previous post:

To Rachel: I know you wana our friendship to be back like the last time. You guys felt that i've change. Seriously speaking, feel much more happier now. Don't have to waste your breath asking me why why why. Cus i dont think i need to give an explaination to you guys. I'm not being unreasonable or wad-so-ever. Anyway enjoy the 9 Feb meet up with Ting. Dont have to try solving this problem, cus it's happening over and over again. Really dont have to try. I feel that it's of no use, so please stop asking me. Thanks.

If don't know what happened seriously,since you don't want to make things clear,i got nothing to say too.When you were silent in the class,i asked you why you are so quiet,you told me you need time to sort out your things..so i let you be..i tried to pull you in our conversation,you seemed no interest..When we all trying to talk to you,you start drifting away...Suddenly,you say can't take it anymore,problem keep happening..diao...where's the problem?You keep talking to the guys instead of us,what can we say??I don't know that my concern like making you feel worse..i tried to understand all your behaviour but did you understand my feeling and my reason for doing all these??After reading your blog really make me feel very sad..you wanna cry...i wanna cry even more..Always tried to be there when you are in sad or troubled..now i think seeing of us make you feel even more worse..Not that i want to nag at you or what,when i see you doing things that are wrong you want me just let you do it??leaving us make you feel better,i can only let you go.. I don't believe the JASLIN that want to smoke,bitch around is the real JASLIN..you are just tempted,not the true you..

I need a super big hug and shoulder....but the person is at TEKONG...-_-

2007-01-29T11:26:00.000+08:00

Values...

The value of the word you said is depend on your relationship with the person.If your relationship with the person is good,the person will eventually value what you said.If not, your words will be no value.

People always give values according to their emotions.When you are happy with me,I'll get great value.If unhappy,my value will drop like stock market..worthless..

Whatever values you hear or have,will determine the power that have in your life.So take the right valued.

A husband's God-given responsibility is to value his wife.The more he appreciate her, the more she increase in value and vice versa,with drop in value ,come an affair...

Last week service,A.R Bernard talk about values..i enjoy that service alot and find his word very meaningful..

I don't know how come our relationship change.Suddenly you become quiet and hardly join us for meal after school..you also not joining us to meet ting on 9 feb..i really want to know the reason why.Last time,all of us was so good..why things change??i don't know what's my word's value to you but i really hope we can talk.I don't want to see a problem but no one solving it..

2007-01-22T11:02:00.000+08:00

Crocs Nightmare!!!!!

Do you know what crocs's staff scare of??IS KIDS!!!!They are like devil...really devil...so scary...

Last saturday,i almost want to kill 2 indian kids..one brother and one younger sister..They were so so so...naughty..keep playing with our display..My colleague asked them not to play,they said "what?why cannot play ar??"So young already so attitude..Then one of them go and climb on our display..asked them to come down,they refuse until their parent come over to carry them down..i feel like wacking them up..haha...The elder brother pushed the younger sister head into the display window(there's a small gap at the display window for us to take thing)All of us like going crazy..feel like wacking them but have to control..they climb on the chair..running around...GRRR....on my god,they are really like devil...Then my colleague and I looked at each other and said "WE ARE NOT GOING TO HAVE A CHILD"..i don't want is because i'm not confident that i can teach my kid well...if they are going to be like them,i would rather not to have one..i can't take it when kid are too naughty..i'm not so patient so not quite suitable to be a parent..hahaha...Maybe not getting married is not a bad thing...haha...Don't have to worry about getting hurt..

In a relationship,your emotion is control by your another partner..is not just your own anymore..if they do anything without thinking about your feeling,you'll feel sad..so 1 girlfriend or boyfriend is enough..so many controlling your emotions for what..suffer even more... Yesterday i watch a TV drama,the father was teaching the son how to woo a girl..He say you must care for her from your heart..truly from the bottom of your heart..then she will sense your sincereity.Don't just use your mouth and say but do a different thing..I think that's quite true.. Everyone is good at saying i'll do this and that but when really do,action and talking don't tally.. Action speaks louder than words...So do more than you say...hahaha...

Think about it..are you the kind of person that say but don't do...if you are,maybe is time to change..bye bye...

2007-01-19T11:38:00.000+08:00

Temptation Island.....

Went to see my friend with charm..is so sad to see him in this way..pipe going through his mouth and neck to help him breathe..laying there motionlessly...Charm start crying when we started talking to him..although he won't reply but i hope at least he can hear what we said..the more i said,the more i felt like crying..So i decided not to talk anymor and let others come in and see him as only two visitors at a time..hope he will get well...oh god please hear my praying..

Is earth a temptation island?i think so..there's so many things that can tempt a person to make mistake..some things you should not get tempted and some things you can get tempted...please know how to draw the line clear..if not you going to regret...and i mean really regret...if you can correct it then good but if it cannot be correct then that's too bad...

i'm feeling really very tired....really very...physically and mentally...haiz....keep feel like sleeping...sianz..k la,ending here

2007-01-15T11:36:00.000+08:00

What's Life?That's Life....

Recently receive a call from a friend saying that my ex colleague met with an accident,now in coma..I was really very shocked..That guy can considered my good friend..Last time,we work together he always joke around with me...he's very lame and funny..During christmas eve,he still crapped around with me.....now.....he's in the hospital...life is so unpredictable...We hardly keep in contact after he went to army...once in a while he'll messenge me and say some stupid things to make me laugh..he always manage to make me laugh..he like to quarrel with me...disturb me...bully by me...the rest of my friend will be going to see him tomorrow..i think i should be going...skip lesson ba...

Treasure people around you before they are gone...seriously..you never know how long a person will live...Like i said before,be sensitive to other people feeling as what you do will affect other people too...you are not the only person in this world..

2007-01-10T10:33:00.000+08:00

First entry of 2007!!!!

A brand new year but the same old things happened....haha...i'm late for school again...trying my very best to be on time...*trying*...haha..
I'm very tired these few days...my nephew admitted to hospital..after school have to go to hospital accompany him so that my brother and sister in law can go home and rest..look after till night time...make me so sleepy..he keep crying and demanding this and that...make me feel like wacking him..haha..but i didn't...my sister feel the same way..really hope he can get well soon..oh..by the way,he admitted to hospital is because his got lung infection..breathing difficulties...

Terrence gave me morning call these 2 days..really thank him alot but i still didn't manage to wake up..haha..too tired...trying to find Jeff to drive me to school...cannot find him..asshole...haha..if i see him in school,i'm going to wack him...haha..Yesterday is the roadshow for all CCA..i'm having lesson so didn't help out much..just help them set up the booth..I discovered a picture....so funny that i laugh until cry....kat super ugly picture..wahahahaha....Do you all want to see??if i get more than 10 are keen then i will post up..hahaha...i know her for almost two years,she don't take any ugly picture as she will feel very embarrassed...this picture is powerful man...haha..i keep laughing non stop i think for 10-15 mins...KATHRYN LOY!!! scare i post up the picture???hahaha...the decision is with the rest...PLEASE VOTE!!!post or not... haha..

Sometime knowing more is not a good thing...But knowing less will make you like a fool..so if were you,will you rather know more or less??Sometime Curiosity kills...haha...the more you know,the worse it get...

2006-12-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

Life changes....

Life changes for me these few weeks...unexpected one..things happened that made me lost..i just feel is somehow different..things don't always turn out the way it should..like people say life is unpredictable..don't expect much,if not you will be the one end up crying,hurt or lost when things went wrong..people are always so insensitive to other people..taking things for granted..or should i say this is human??MY WARNING FOR EVERYONE....please please pay attention to your loved ones,friend or whatever..because of your insensitive you can really hurt the person deeply..if you don't think so,then wait till is your turn..

WHAT MORE WORSE THING EVER HAPPENED TO ME IS MY HANDPHONE SPOILT!!!!i want to cry..why must it happened to me when i'm broke???why why why?tell me please..someone tell me.....But lucky that a person that i always bully have extra phone to lent me if not i really don't know how to contact all my friends...if anyone notice i long time didn't messeng u,please send me your contact number!!!!!!!i lost most of my contact..i promise my that friend i TRY not to bully him so often...trying to cut down..hahaha.....

Today christmas eve,i'm spending my time with terrence...haha...in the afternoon i went to his mother house to have lunch then went out to find his friend but half way through he's too tired then he went home..i now using his laptop now to update my blog....oh,by the way...for all the KPOs..(basically is wendy wun wei xian..hahaha...)he like the watch!!!hahaha...

2006-12-14T09:08:00.000+08:00

I bought this watch for dear!!!he need this for his NS...After i bought this i can declare bankrupt!!! Have to eat bread and drink plain water everyday...haiz..haha..but i'm very happy that i bought this watch for dear..hope he like it...before he went NS he keep saying about this watch..he likes it..This watch is my christmas present for him..hope he like it...hehe....

I also going for the graduation night with kat and jas as the rest don't want to go...One don't want to spend money on dress,another don't want to wear dress...haiz..but hope the graduation night will worth our money not too boring or things like that...My sec sch graduation night was really very very fun so i hope this round will be the same...hahaha...And by the way,i already confirm meeting dear everyday when he book out...hahaha...he say i must accompany him...of course i will...haha..i think after that he book out will be on january...hehehe...stopping here...

2006-12-13T10:41:00.000+08:00

Dear Booking out SOON!!!!!!!

Dear called me every night..hahaha..this is really not what i expected seriously...i thought he will fall asleep immediately when lights out..so really very happy to hear his voice every night..but really scare he going to run out of batt soon...he said is not really tough inside..is it maybe because just started??most people went in felt that is very tough or because he always go jogging all that so is easy for him to get adapt over there...Feeling really happy to hear his voice and know that everything is fine inside..KEEP telling him to be more careful as he hurt his toe before he went NS...I'm like a mother,keep worrying this and that..haha..making me feel very old like that..

He will be booking out on 22 dec!!!i'm so lucky as on that day is my off day...so able to go find him..he going back in on 25 dec but don't know is morning or evening...on 24 dec i'm off again!! If possible i hope i can spend the christmas eve with him..this will be our first christmas spending together..Don't know is he free or not...hmm....waiting for the day to come...22 DECEMBER 2006..

Later going down bugis help dear check out the price to fix his watch..thinking to buy christmas present for him too!!!never thought that he will be able to come out on christmas so now have to plan what to buy for him....ok la,going to do my assignment..tata....

2006-12-11T17:16:00.000+08:00

Dear went army....

On Saturday 9 Dec 2006,i send dear to Tekong for his NS service..i meet dear at 8 am as he has to report at Pasir Ris at 9am...We went to eat delifrance with his uncle,aunty,sister and mother.. Kind of a bit scare at that time as first time see his uncle and auntie..But the uncle was very friendly..like to joke..so make me relax a bit..there's alot of thing pop out last minute when we reach the Pasir Ris Interchange then the officer tell us that cannot wear slipper..Dear's uncle and auntie were wearing slipper..so have to find shoe for them to change..haha..everyone was like panick..haha..But dear's uncle was smart to notice that the malay family there was a man wearing slipper so he asked the officer why..the officer say if is the parent,out of goodwill they will allowed them to pass..so his uncle asked dear's mother to exchange shoe with his wife..haha.. What a great idea..everythings solve as his uncle have a pair of shoe in his car..so just have to rush to get it..then everything goes well...

We went around looking around at the place they sleep and try out the food..actually ok la,not that bad..but dear don't like it..maybe having too much good food before NS,that's why..haha.. He will be booking out 22 Dec...really hope can meet him..but he say see first..sad..
Actually say the truth,i do scare that dear going army may change something in our relationship..Before NS,we didn't really meet up often..as he was busy with other things..a little bit sad of course..hoping to spend a little more time with him but come and think of it..i'm not the only thing in his life..he wanted to spend more time with friend and doing time that he like most..so i also don't want to force him..don't want any unneccessary argument before NS.. The time that he with his friend increased greatly which made me feel a bit neglected in fact..Did try to talk to him but he don't really seem keen to come out so i forget about it..

On wed,6 dec, supposed to fetch me after school and go walk walk around but didn't see him when lesson end..so gave him call then found out that he's still sleeping..he asked me to go his house find him..so i went..stay a while in his house,have a nice talk with 2 of his sister then we went for dinner..after dinner,i went back home..he go play soccer,i go fetch my nephew..the next 2 days hardly talk on phone as he said he's at chalet so won't be calling me..i do feel a little a distance start to appear..i don't know why..sometime felt that he don't really want to talk on phone...Am i thinking too much?i don't know..There are 3 possible things MIGHT happened when he book out..

Firstly,if when he book out but he's too busy to meet me,how am i going to face it?What should i say??If one day his feeling for me fade,what should i say or do...
Secondly,things stay the same like now...sometime he meet me for a while,sometime don't...
Thirdly,Things get better..like people say,"distance make hearts grow fonder"..hope that will happen...haha..human are greedy,always hope for the best to happen...

All these are just what i said MIGHT happened..I'm not saying that i will change my heart or what...I WON'T CHANGE...my love for him did not change at all..Love is like a plant,you need the sunlight and water to keep it alive...Don't think that without any one of these the plant can survive..sunlight and water is the basic need..Without it,plant will die..Sunlight is the love,water is care..you need both..Giving too little,the plant will not be healthy..so must give the right amount..every night hear his voice really brighten up my day..knowing that he is doing well inside and still remember to call me..i'm really very happy...i thought he will be too tired and fall asleep..i really appreciated the effort..dear,i love you..haha..hope to see that effort when you book out^_^stopping here..bye bye...waiting for him to come out on 22 dec....

To dear---hope that when 20 feb 2007,you will remember the promise you made...^_^

2006-12-06T10:42:00.000+08:00

End Of Year Soon......

This year going to end soon...I have been thinking what happened this year..good and bad..I got to know dear this year february..Time flies..now already end of the year..Now project have some changes..At first there are 6 persons in a group,now split into half..ya..maybe is a better choice,lesser argument..as long as you all are comfortable with the group i'm ok with it..i also don't want this to affect our friendship..
Dear going to NS this saturday...hope everything will turn out fine for him..During NS don't know will there have any changes??hopefully no..I also pray hard he will be safe and sound in NS..Now i sound like a old grandmother...i know sometime i'm a bit nagging but i really worried about you..Sometime you didn't really notice things that you should...that's why i'm really worried..But there's nothing much i can do either..
Hope next year will really be a better year..Not saying this year is not a good year but alot of things happened...

2006-12-04T08:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired now...really...my eyes are heavy and a bit swollen..feeling weird too..Haiz..Did things change?I really wonder..the more I wonder,the more i'm scare...That kind of feeling i don't know how to say...All i know is i'm really tired now.....Mind keep thinking and thinking..think until i'm so tired...but i just can't stop..My face are pale..so in another way, i'm just like walking zombie or a ghost..life sometime is so complicated,sometime is simple....Sometime is beautiful,sometime is ugly...sometime is bitter sometime is sweet...When is ugly,you'll think of time that are beautiful and hope it will be like then...When is bitter,you'll hope the sweet memories won't make it so bitter...But all this is just what you hope..not very likely will happen..

The previous post i have edited..if you are free can go take a look...take care everyone..

2006-11-29T11:12:00.000+08:00

Dear birthday!!
On that day,dear came my house and fetch me.He played with my dog from sunny to rainy..At first weather was fine then the longer we dragged,the worse is the weather.Actually for me is quite rush cause I want to bring him to Paris International Buffet Restaurant.his lunch time end at 4pm..at that time was already 2pm..I bring only one small little umbrella which supposedly enough for a person. Feeling weird why i only bring one?CAUSE I ONLY HAVE ONE FOLDABLE UMBRELLA!!but dear say is ok..but then later is NOT OK ...we went down to orchard as i wanted to bring him watch movie and have the buffet..When we reach there, is like raining CATS AND DOGS. So we use the small umbrella trying to walk over to cineleisure.When we are waiting for the traffic light I saw the opposite side when the car went passed,the water that accumulate at the roadside will splash up to the path.The wave is big..Then i told dear that later we stay away from that side then he say ok..When we were there,dear were very careful holding me far away from the roadside that i said...For your information,is a cross road...so left and right is also car...We stood there and waited,i saw my shirt was dirty so i wanted to tell dear that is dirty......JUST WHEN I WANT TO OPEN MY MOUTH,A STUPID IDIOTIC BUS WENT BY,THE WATER SPLASH RIGHT FROM MY HEAD TO TOE!!!!!!!!!dear only get half of his body wet...but i was drenched..totally...is so damn gross!!!!dirty water from roadside...i was so shocked when that happened..i was thinking how come the rain get so big like people taking a pail and pour water on me...oh my god...
Then we went to cinelersure to buy movie ticket..dear asked me to buy new shirt as i'm totally wet...i was like shivering so really no choice havr to buy a new shirt..after buying the tickets we going Ngee Ann City at first intend to eat Paris International Buffet Restaurant but we didn't make it on time for the lunch..so we eat Breek instead..the mashed potato is soo..... nice.....i like it alot...yummy..haha...then we go library as we were still early for the movie...After the movie dear went to meet his Youth Council friend then i went back home..That's all for his birthday....

2006-11-22T10:59:00.000+08:00

My brain dead........

Dear and me 9 months le!!!!!haha....he going to NS soon...sobs...our next month cannot celebrate as he already in the army..haiz..sure to miss him alot..

I'm really really really very tired now..I almost everyday only sleep 4 hours..i have been rushing dear present till 2 plus almost everyday....and i also rushing to complete the translation of my script for College Sphere Event...English translate to chinese is really not a easy task...My whole week is so packed...Tomorrow i have to go to MacPherson ITE for the rehearsal of the College Sphere...Then on Friday is the actual event..have to reach before 12...Then saturday i'm working..Sunday go out woth bombers to celebrate dear birthday...On Monday,his birthday,i'll be celebrating dear birthday with him...so i have no time left,must faster finish his present..after today don't know i can find time to do or not..

My head is dead now..having AOA now but really can't concentrate much....haiz..next week is the CA..die liao...
My eyes like panda and i'm like a walking zombie..haha...ok la,stopping here le,have to do assignment now..tata...

2006-11-17T11:50:00.000+08:00

Tired tired tired....

These few weeks have been rushing dear's present...so scare that i won't be able to finsh in time..next week i'll be busy with the college sphere event...already didn't see dear for a week..miss him but he can't meet me..haiz..never mind..when he can meet me then meet me lor..before that he keep playing game then can't meet me then he hurt his big tie few days ago..he went to see a doctor..the doctor took out the nail as it already cracked..dear is resting at his aunt house so i can't visit him...i think maybe our anniversary we are not going out as don't know is it ok for him to walk..now he everyday will stay at his aunt house during day time..just hope that he can get well soon..he also going army soon..This period that he can't meet me take it as a training period...life without him..haha...
By the way,my problem are solve so don't worry for me le...thanks...^_^

2006-11-13T10:39:00.000+08:00

Is everything goes haywire or what......

Things don't really goes well in my life???erm...am i making things worse or things did really goes wrong..don't know..extra sensitive??i'm trying to talk to you all for the last 2 hours or rather from last thursday onward but you all don't seem to be listening to what i'm talking..i really do feel neglected..but maybe to you all i just showing attitude that's all..you all just leave me aside...i'm just upset about that..anyway you all don't seem to bother too..at least i expected someone to understand me but she didn't..thinking i'm showing attitude too..i always try to understand you all..This time i really hope you all can understand but i don't think so..no one asked why i behaving this way...really feel i don't belong to you all..rather sad but true...Do friends change?i don't know now...

2006-11-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

Feeling lost....

Just finishing quarreling with my mum and bro..Why always is my fault...why everytime have to drag people who are not related in...The child is not mine..i'm just helping out,and i have make myself very clear that when you want me to help u ask me..don't just think that i'm free...Did i change i did not know...If i really change is it the day that you said your own daughter seducting guys outside?or is you said i was indecent thing outside?Are you trying to say your daughter is a prostitute?Since young when did i ever create any trouble outside...why suddenly withdraw all your trust on me??What did i do....All of you is starting making me to hate you...Always want me to sacrific this and that..if the child is mine,would you all help me?bother about me?i have sacrific my O level because of you all!!!!No matter what i do,i'm always wrong..if you think is not big then what for you ask me to study...when i was studying my O level...u scolded me...u say study very big ar...no need do house work...i did do...i after school still have to rush home and look after baby,you think that's easy??after that i have to do house work before i can study..did you notice what time then i can study???After 7!!!How tired i am do you know that..While other people were enjoying outside,i'm looking after baby which is not mine!!!You all are my family so i don't mind...i carry on helping even though is very near to my "O"..When i got my FUCKING result what you all say.....you la,didn't study get this kind of grade...Did you ever look at my result before the baby was born???i'm always in the top 10!!My grade drop straight down...Who cares?who appreciate my effort???Now i get so sick of it..i want to get free of all this...i started to let go...you said i change...you change too...you said all that hurtful words that you never said to me before...say i'm flirting around out...i just go out with my friends,you said i want to flirt...My friend are girls!!!you don't seek for the truth before you said anything...You never bother to ask..Everything is you said then is correct...my work load also very heavy..not only you...why i don't want to tell you my schedule..my free days you all will want to make me look after baby...i don't want!!!you all make me so scare to stay at home and starting to hate this place....we just cannot communicate right now...To you all,i'm always wrong...have problem will come find me..when nothing,start picking on me...i'm really very tired of this kind of life....All the quarrels..last time,all of us each other freedom..we know our limits...Now you all keep taking away my freedom...i always have to put a shield...really very very tired...i want to get out of this house but i know you won't let me...you said i'm a adult now then treat me like one...going out til 10 plus at night you start scolding me....i went out at 6pm...last time i went out til midnight you won't scold...i know my limit...i never cross the line...now you keep pushing the line more and more toward me...making me suffocated...when my school deduct the school fee,you come and scold me..you said you want to deduct by giro and now become my fault...you want me to dig money for you no matter what..At that point of time,my heart is breaking..how come you have become like that???you never said this type of thing to me before...everyone come and scold me..making you so upset...then what about me?i'm not a human?when i'm sick you didn't even bother...never mind..i know i'm a big girl now everything cannot always go to you..i try settle myself..then you said i everything didn't tell you...i tell you,you don't bother...
I'm all alone and i'm fine with it...i'm always alone isn't it...you make me so independent when i'm young...What you all comment doesn't matter to me anymore...what you all do i give you support then when come to my thing..what did you give...tolerance have reach the limit....
That's it....

2006-11-02T09:48:00.000+08:00

Bad DAY!!!!!!

Monday i have mense cramp and i fainted in school(so malu..)I think i attracted alot of attention as i was sitting on the office chair(with wheels) then my bombers push me to the sick bay(thanks gals)..Everyone is looking at me...but i don't care much...the pain is killing me..i feel like dying..Bombers called dear to fetch me home as all my family members were working...When at the sick bay,alot of teachers came to see me..keep asking me to hold on...(sound like i'm dying..) i was so painful that i can't open eyes..then i heard dear voice,he keep calling me but i was too painful to answer him..then i carry me to take to the cab that waiting outside...(Wow,dear so strong to carry me...for your information..i'm not very light...)

2006-10-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

I'm speechless........

Just now i was using the computer and chit chatting with my manager(Going to 30 years old,getting married soon)who is standing beside me.Suddenly a girl keep looking at me from outside make me feel very uncomfortable so i look outside...Guess what? HUI YI.i said hi to her then she ask me why am i doing here...i look at her and said isn't it very obvious i'm working here and she know i work at crocs,keep asking me to give her discount last time.I asked her back the question,why are you doing here,she said her friends is waiting for her outside so i said then don't hold you on,you go join your friends(although she'd the one walk in and asking me question.)When she about to leave she give me a very weird look,and stand there,giving me a stare and said:"The guy standing beside you is your boyfriend is it?"My manager and me burst into laughters..How can he be my boyfriend? When she even know my boyfriend?i asked her why she said so,she said because he's standing beside me.I asked her so whoever stand beside me is my boyfriend la...Oh my god,i thought she know me and dear together and she knows him too...She's can't expect me to have two boyfriend at the same time right?And more over so OPENLY?not saying i intending to have two(this never cross my mind before seriously)but the question she asked is kind of funny and stupid. After she step out of the shop she came in again and asked:"Do i have discount if i buy crocs?"i looked at her and said:"Maybe if just now you did not say that,i might give you..but after you said that i don't think there's any discount."
I'm kind of speechless for a second or two when she said that(my manager have the same reaction)
Can i say she brighten up my day?

2006-09-26T16:21:00.000+08:00

schedule for the past few days.....

Went to the bishan carnival on sat with the sphere elderly.Is was such a hot day,i was like running around helping the elderly buy the food and drinks..The elderly is a bit like kid..haha.. when they see another elderly have biscuit then one by one will ask for it..when they see other have ice cream then they also want..making the interacter running buying this and that..they leave around 12.30 then is our free time..i went around playing games,take photo...i asked jen ,wei and kat to wait for the lucky draw..haha...don't know why just want to wait which normally i won't..Guess what???My name was called during the lucky draw...i was shocked..in my mind i was thinking,there are people same name as me ar...only when jen they all looked at me and asked me to go up then i realised really is me...There are so many people in this world call Rachel Lim..didn't expect to be me..haha..i win a thumbdrive...haha..quite happy cause i always wabted a thumbdrive so that is easily to do my project.
Then the following day,sun,i was supposed to work but my mense came...mense cramp!!!!pain like hell...i couldn't get down the bed...if those who see me having cramp before will know how serious it is..i can cramp until faint..that's why i didn't go to work,i don't want to faint at my work place..and i also won't be able to stand and serve customers.That day i was like suffering..
The next day,mon,i have to attend a important meeting.When i wake up i was having a fever.But no choice have to go.In the meeting i was very quiet,i really don't have much strength to talk or anything.When walking around to see the venue of the event,i was walking the last..i'm like zombie on that day...i'm like so weak,don't know why but lucky within a day i recover...after the meeting i went and eat medicine and sleep when i wake up the fever is gone..
Now i'm at my work place..feel like very long didn't work..3 days off...now fully recover.....
Dear i'm so sorry of what i said that make you sad..i didn't mean it...i should now have understand it..although you told me that you are not angry but i still feel very bad..i will try to be a more understanding girlfriend...love you...^_^

2006-09-21T13:38:00.000+08:00

Think about it.....

"Relationships are like banks,the more love and kindness you put,the more you will have to withdraw in times of adversity.If you are constantly depleting the bank by inconsiderate actions and verbal abuse,you will not have enough left to weather the emotional storms that can affect people working and living in a competitive and turbulent time."

"Relationship are two way street; What you will get and what you will give are equally important."

"The quality of talking is just as important as the quality of listening. If we are abusive and insensitive to the listener, we are taking advantage of him. Talking should be done with respect, sensitivity, conciseness and honesty."

"Partners who do not know how to express emotions create barriers which are painful and restraining. Positive emotions such as joy, love, hope and contentment can be useless if they do not find an outlet for expression. Often people don't know that they are loved or that they bring joy to others."

"In any relationship, whether it is professional or personal, someone has to give. If both taking, there is little opportunity to solve anything."

All these quotes is i get from a book "Emotional Intelligence".Find the book quite interesting..about how different kind of people having the wrong view of love.Some based on look because they want their children to be beautiful.They believe those who have better look have a better chance to promote.Love don't really exist in this kind of relationship.i only read half of it....if i find more interesting quote,i'll update again....

2006-09-20T11:36:00.000+08:00

i'm burned....

Yesterday when swimming wif dear...we are celebrating our 7th month...it so tiring...dear teach me free style..keep asking me to swim..say must swim faster than him then can stop..how can it possible..i so long didn't swim..i normally swim frog style...we go around 12 plus..go home about 3 plus..i get burned...my nose my cheek and forehead is red and is so pain...i hate get burn...sobz..so ugly..just move a bit will be so painful..then after that,evening time we meet kat,cement n jen 4 dinner at marina south...dear want to eat steamboat...before going there i'm so hungry..then after that eeryone is so full until want to vomit liao..all the exercise dear and me do in the afternoon is gone..haha...but is fun la...dear yesterday keep bullying me...pity me...haha...he keep twisting my hand..so painful...never mind i know something that can stop his moves...haha.. dear very scare i go and learn...anyway his strength is so big even if i learn also stil can't beat him...dear i won't bear to wack you de even though u bear to wack me....hahaha.....
now feeling so dead and tired...natas coming..working on friday and saturday...sunday have to go back to crocs to work...thurs is my chalet!!!! Bombers chalet...kind of excited..haha..after chalet the next day straight away go natas work..at expo..meet dear and go together...jen,kat,ting and me woring on friday..wei working from sat on...only on sat 5 of us will be working together..i think it wil be fun!!!!but jas not working...haiz..if not whole bomber squad will be working...
stopping now....bye

2006-09-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

Back from Cameron Highland.....

It have been quite long since my last update...i just came back to singapore 2 days ago...have fun at cameron highland with dear and his family...Cameron is very cold,i almost freeze up...everywhere i go have to put on kacket and gloves...even dear who always feels hot,feel cold when he get there...keep sneezing...haha...We went to Strawberry farm,pluck strawberry..we also went to their small towns,market..actually there's nothing much to shop,there only alot of vegetable and strawberry....STRAWBERRY STRAWBERRY STRAWBERRY!!!everywhere you will see people selling strawberry,strawberry farm..even the restaurant menu will have strawberry..strawberry juice,ice cream(can't imagine who will eat at such a cold temperature but we eat..haha...) etc..etc...Now i'm so scare of strawberry..the people sleep quite early...there's no night life there...even ther nightmarket is fron 6pm till 10pm...normal shop will start closing around 8 plus....9 plus no much shop id open...EXCEPT a place that dear like to go....kind of a internet cafe...it open from 9am till 5am what did he do there?PLAY DOTA...after dinner he will go there and play til midnight...and i think that's the only place that will make him sweat alot..after he finish playing the game,you can see him sweating alot...he said is too exciting...kind of miss singapore when i was there..the bombers...my pri sch frenz..sec sch frenz.. yesterday i met up with the bombers,very happy to see them again..have a nice dinner and happily chatting all the way...
Bombers seem to be flooding my mail..having hard time clearing my mail...but i receive a interesting mail from one of my best friend...is a story..i like one of the phrase inside...

Love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but to understand, not to hear

but to listen, not to let go but to HOLD ON !!!!

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one

you like will leave you for the one they love.

Towards the end it say about what kind of guy you should find.....

Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he

cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's

her."

2006-08-23T12:58:00.000+08:00

Days after sick...

These few day have been sick..fever,running nose,sought,sore throat and cramp...sick at home is so boring...i hate staying at home..so boring..no onme at home..feel so lonely...haiz..rather go to school..i was given two days MC but after resting for one day i went back to school..anyway at home also sleeping and sleeping only...feel like nobody cares...this is the 3rd day that i'm sick... hope i will get well soon..i still have project to rush out too..yesterday quite bad mood..don't know is it because of my mense or because i'm sick...when to buy present for my friend,the sale person attitude is so bad..make my blood boil...i don't feel like buying but no choice cause my friend like it..have to bear with it..get done with it..i'm not going back to that shop again..
ok...ending here...a busy week ahead...*where are you.....*

2006-08-17T11:10:00.000+08:00

Updating....

These few days,nothing much happened actually...only a thing that make me really very frustrated...talk about that later...
Yesterday just presented our ADM project*finally!*...haiz..but i don't think i do a good job as i don't really talk very smooth...some part i just could not say out the word then my friend have to help me...anyway is over le...but overall Mrs Quek give quite good comment on our project... There's a role play too..haha..have a great time acting as a MAN...haha
For the frustrating thing,a malay guy keep disturbing me...i get very frustrated about him..he lives near my house..he always hang out at my house area...i really don't what he want..everytime i want to take lift or going out he will come and stop my way..say why i so action,don't talk to him..who he think he is..why must i talk to him..i hate people force me do thing that i really don't like...i jut don't like to talk to him..why must he keep insisting that i must talk to him...i don't care what he trying to do to me...i won't restrict myself from going out and even is my brother or mum say so..why must i because of this kind of person to keep staying at home..i won't let this kind of person affect my life..so what he have a whole group of malay friends always at my house downstair....even afternoon i went home i still will see then can't expect me don't go school or what..so is not as if i go home late then will see him that kind of thing..most of the time i just step out of the lift,i will see him around...i don't care anymore..no one can do anything what...so let it be...
Can someone just feel the way i feel..is not that i want to go against what people say,is just that i don't want the reason is because of that IDIOT!!!if not because of that person,i will surely listen...

2006-08-07T17:24:00.000+08:00

Picture time!!!!

Taken at tracy birthday...order something that are too much for me...going to put on weight..haiz..

Me and carrisa....we were so bored while waiting for food...so keep taking picture...hahaha...

Now you see it....................(after half an hour or so)

Now you don't.....haha...

After eating(with the help of my friends) my stomach feel so bloated...increasing weight -_-"

Hehe...dear...you won't don't want me ba?(^_^)

2006-08-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

Tracy birthday!!!!!

Today when out quite early to celebrate tracy birthday...long time didn't see her...she have changed...she perm her hair...look much more mature..alot more than me..haha..We have a great time..eating..joking around..ever since we graduate from secondary school,hardly have time to meet..
Everytime i went out with them,there's surely something funny happened...this time is from my friend,jing...both of us wanted to go to toilet,jing walk infront of me..both of us was talking.. didn't really paid much attention to other thing...she saw a man walking out of the toilet then she went to push the door..then i found it very weird..i say that is a gent..she already push the door half way..then she argued with me say that's the ladies,at that time i can see from the door another man was washing his hand...she don't believe..guess what she do?she opened the door and looked inside..then say "ya hor"...haha..when she close the door,she saw the sign "man"...i was laughing like crazy..when we looked behind there's another girl looking at us...she was following the direction we walking..then she realised we walk the wrong direction...my friend was so embarrassed...i didn't mean to keep laughing but i just can't help...
Then went to esplanade...the chocolate bar...now make me so fear of chocolate...take alot of pictures...haha..until tracy was so scare of us..haha..see quite alot familiar faces...the day before also...Yesterday night went there with another friend then met wendy...then today is with another group of friend..haha...ok la..ending here..tomorrow have to wake up early...bb

2006-07-31T20:27:00.000+08:00

sick.....

i didn't went to school today as i was sick..after the sunday service,i think i catch a cold or what.. running nose..headache..giddy..sore throat...everything start coming...haiz...feeling so sick and weak now...the doctor give me two day MC..today and tomorrow...just get inform by wendy that i have one more project coming up...project again..but this project is easier then the rest so still ok...i think my attendence in school is quite bad...haiz...will try to improve on it...k la,going to rest le..bye..see tomorrow morning how i feel..if ok,i think i want to go to school...

2006-07-28T16:40:00.000+08:00

story....

There's a girl,a very simple and normal looking girl...her childhood is not like other children..dote by everyone but instead she always get bullied for some reason..although there were times that she's fierce in order to defend her,she still believe she should treat others the way she wanted to be treated...people say she was naive..but she don't think so..although there are bad people around in this world but she rather believe those around her is good ones..always put on defence is very tiring..throughout her childhood she's doing that..she don't want to carry on like that for the rest of her life..She's lucky..those around are indeed the good ones..dote by friends..always be there for her..She always feel that her heart is very heavy..she cannot turn to anyone..not because she don't trust,she always feel that if she said out something will happen..she's very emotional..tears was like part of her life..she hate this..Whenever she shed a tear,she felt herself very useless and weak..she don't want to be a burden to anyone..people always say,you always never think and put your whole heart in in regardless of friend or love..don't be so stupid..she tried to be patience with people as long as is within her limit..people sometime start to take forgranted..they do something and expect her to accept it or never spare a thought for her... sometime she felt that her feeling have been neglected..useless her,will start crying as feeling hurt and sad..but who cares?people won't notice..people won't change..sometime she wonder she have been trying to give the understanding,patience,tolerence,support or whatever so..but why people never give her what she want...just sparing a thought of how she feel..
If you thinking what about the family?family don't support her emotionally?what's funny is..she cannot be sad in her family..in her family no one will show sadness..she's also wonder why is that so..other family member never get sad before?a question never get answer..once,she show her sadness,stress..everything out..guess what..she get scolded and warn to stop crying..no console, no concern..she find weird...really weird..that's why she don't feel really close bond with the family...her family background is very complicated that's why the family is different from others..no one except her family know how complicated it was..cause they never say...

What do you think of this girl story?she's stupid..?that's what i think...family is really weird.. cannot be understand..this girl you all don't know her cause i don't really know her well too... sorry if i have bored you with this story..

2006-07-27T11:54:00.000+08:00

Just another day.....

today going to do project with jen and wei....i'm going to change blogskin so please don't misunderstand anything..i choose the skin because i like the pic...i don't mean anything else...things are fine...wei is helping me to change it...these few days everything seem quite boring...really..haiz...keep feeling something wrong but....kinda confused..maybe changes are needed...
Trying to adjust back to school life...during holiday have been working..finding it very difficult to wake up at 6 plus now...sianz..trying to make my life busy ba..if not kind of feel a bit lonely..haha...don't know is it mood swing..you know.....girl's thing...rushing projects..ENT,TKS and ADM...haiz...headache..then arranging interacters to attend talks tomorrow..no one reply..hope that they will turn up if not i die...have to go...next week i think have sphere ba...i'm in charge this time round..have to think of game all that again...the last time didn't end really that good,a bit messy...so this time my turn hope it will at least better a bit..mrs goh is back..she gave birth to a son...v cute..see him once in school when mrs goh came and visit us...teacher ask me and dorothy to identify potential leaders from sphere...haha..both of us find it very difficult...for me i think they are two indian girls that are not bad...can consider...too bad stefanie and coreen is not in sphere...they do have the potential...
k la,that's all in my life this few days...update again...probably after weekend...cya den...

2006-07-26T14:59:00.000+08:00

what a bad day...........

Today....LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!!haha..nothing really very special la but just started school not long then late for school again...but there are good news also...bombers is ok now..everything solve liao...no worries le..accompany wendy to renew her PDL...then head to her house...when we alight the bus,we found that our shirt is dirty...black powder or ash kind of thing...we were so shock and don't know when we got it...
Few days ago was kind of sad but now feeling better le..my mind feel more relax now...visited City Harvest...a good experience..enjoy the trip there...haha..k la..ending here..update again..

2006-07-20T16:41:00.000+08:00

My 5th month anniversary!!!!!

today is dear and me 5th month aniversary but we celebrated it yesterday as i need to work today...we went to east coast park there,a japanese restaurant,ZEN...the food there is quite nice...this restaurant is recommended by STEFANIE and COREEN(dear,don't forget again...)they were working there so when we got there,coreen opened the door for us already..i was quite surprised..then the both of them serve us which dear and i feel very weird as we know each other but acted like we don't know...they talk to us very formally and polite..haha..a bit weird the feeling...but everything is great there...the food and the atmosphere...haha..the mashed potatoe is soooooo.......nice...haha...dear say i cannot taste those special food...i don't taste the different..what's ingredient inside..i'll learn how to cook de..don't say me don't know how to cook next time you eat what..haha..when i learn make sure you must eat finish..we enjoy ourselves alot..sit there talking and joke...only the two of us...dear,u really help me to lighten up my stress..i feel much better..haha..you brighten up my day...if not i don't know whether will i still stressing....love you...muack!sorry to drag you down..like you told me think of the happy things,don't think of the sad things...some things i don't have control and i also can't control.. now there's nothing i can do..just wait and see how things goes..cause the say is not with me now...ok ending le...lastly is...DEAR HAPPY 5TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!

2006-07-17T13:42:00.000+08:00

Stay cool..........

Things now still ok for me..taking it easy...sorry to make anyone of you worried for me...and thanks alot...don't have to worry for me le...^_^
Saturday,dear suddenly called me and ask me to meet him at bugis..claiming that he want to buy something so after work i went down to find him..he was at the arcade..he seemed so serious when he played game...BUT after that....haha..is not that case..after playing game he asked me whether i'm hungry or not..i told him i don't feel like eating..he said he not hungry also..but we ended up at mos burger...he could not finish his food which i found it a bit weird as the meal is not alot..just a small burger and a small pack of fries....what happened later on was unexpected to me....WASA!!!!!this is what he keep saying..he said have a secret to tell me,asked me to come near...then he will shout "WASA!!!" and ran off...i was kind of irritated for the whole night...keep wondering "why he like to irritate me so much today" when i was quite tired and not really in the good mood...he was so different from usual dear..he's serious and sometime joke a bit...he will know when to do what...he won't laugh until non stop that kind...but on that night i see another side of him...hahaha...kind funny...and very lame of the things he telling...keep telling me lame jokes and the "WASA"...i don't know to laugh or what...he told me why breadtalk call breadtalk...and pressing the traffic light button and say "WASA" it will become green man..(i didn't do that la..haha)just felt that dear is different..haha...he laugh until he have stomach cramp...but he do all these there are reason behind it de...only when he told me then i realised... thanks dear...haha...helping me when my problem...muacks!!!
bomber sqaud-there's nothing we can't solve k...bombers won't spilt de...don't bear grudge... we talk then after forget about all the unhappiness k...i'm not trying to restrict you all but can keep using F*** when mentioning our problem can...don't sound quite nice and i don't want things go worse.....friend forever k?ending here..and thanks dear for giving me morning call today morning!!!!!!

2006-07-14T14:56:00.000+08:00

don't want to think about it..

Recently things don't seemed to goes really well....really tired..don't wanna care much le..recently like keep quarreling wif my mum...can't get well...she keep picking on me,i don't even know why..i don't want to quarrel with her iso i choose to ignore her...scold whatever she want...then yest didn't go and do project with the bombers as there were some last min changes they made which i can't make it...sorry...feeling there were people piss off all that...i,too wanna do the project so don't say as if i don't care much...showing attitube to me all that,i would rather you say out as i don't feel like reading body language and things like that...my holiday is gone, working and working...rushing projects all that..i would rather spend more time in completing the project then pissing off things...talk out please..
and one thing..please don't give up on ur happiness wendy wun wei xian...u know it yourself,who treat u the best...love you the most..the let the past repeat again...ok,going to stop here le...bye..

2006-07-10T23:42:00.000+08:00

sleepy gal....

world cup finally over!!!ok,actually it doesn't really concern me as i don't watch soccer...looking at more than ten guys running after a ball don't really interest me....sorry soccer lover...BUT the final i actually go and watch....my friend drag me along..even i came up with lots of excuses they don't seem to accept any..haha...so i surrender...Italy won..oh my god..don't really like them after i see the match..so fake..like to pretend alot..ok i have to admit almost half of the match i'm sleeping...cos i really can't take it...only when people shout "GOAL!!!" then it wake me up...i went to DXO to watch as is near my working place...dear sorry that i didn't inform you earlier..is a last min decision...i promise next time i'll inform you immediately...reach home in around 6 plus in the morning..half dead...what i get from world cup is dark circle..eye bag..haha..ok la..anyway is over...dear waited for me the whole night as he ask me to call him when reach home..so immediately after the match i called him..he didn't sleep at all..wait for me..sorry dear..keep u waiting for so long...ok ending here...tomorrow still have to work...bye

2006-07-05T19:25:00.000+08:00

updating now!!!!

sorry for didn update for so long...quite busy recently...last thurs i meet dear go queensway buy things...den we meet my sis in law to go basa malam(don't know hw to spell)...then from thurs til sun i went for camp...actually overall quite fun..the client i look after all although sometime he's quite naughty..keep running away..(end up i scold him once,he became very good..)this show that sometime scolding do work..haha..but i didn't scold him really very fierce just kinda say him...by the way..my client is 34 years old...the camp lasted 3 days..when the 3rd day comes,i'm like half dead..he's too active..i looked after him like 24 hrs...when he eat,bathe(i wait outside,didn't went in ok),play games,brush teeth...wow..but overall is ok la..fun...know some friends from simei ite...etty,kishore..etc..then the next day,mon,is my working day!!!i'm so tired..even until now...sun when i went home i slept almost the whole day...just wake up to eat and bathe...tues(yest),i meet joy to go bugis to buy shirt from OP but unfortunately there's no more size that she want..she buying for her boyfriend..so sweet ar..haha..hope to get some staff discount from my friend too but she transfer to jurong point...joy..fated la..cannot get staff purchi meet ut with the bomber squad to do project...THEN JENNIFER TWANG didn turn up...say until so loudly that time "rac,when is your off day,we all go out and do project TOGETHER"...when that day come,where are you miss?aiya,forget about it..just don't do it the next time k...if not,you going to get it from me..for sure...haha...mon i also meet dear as is his friend birthday he ask me along after i finish my work at ten...sit there drinking and talking..then discover most of them in the same school as me but i never see them before..quite a fun time talking to them...then for now....I'M WORKING!!!haha..but there's no customer so i use this chance to update my blog..cos after work go home i'm sure to tired to switch on my computer...later after work meeting dear too...should be ba..as he ask me afer work call him... gtg le..working

2006-06-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

mIxTuRe oF fEeLiNg....

ok..to continue from the previous post,they were arguing about a basketball short..the guy want it like a couple wear but the girl don't want...while they were arguing i decided to choose one basketball short for dear...9actually got no much mood to tell de but don't want people misunderstand them..thinking in a wrong way)already got people asking...

"thousand of questions rushing through my mind...

am i right or am i wrong...

mistake is commonly made..

as no one is a saint..

but every mistake there is a price to pay..

only depend whether is it big or small..

once i asked myself..

did i made a decision that will affect my future..

To my surprise..

i don't know the decision i made have any future..

advises,opinions and comments surround us almost everyday..

for me that's the case..

telling me what's right,what's wrong..

what i should do..what i should not do..

what i can do is smiled and walk away..

sit down at aside and let my mind and heart come together..

i can't force myself to do what i can't convince my heart to follow..

i believe that there's nothing for sure..

promises can be broken,words can be taken back..

is the promises the person give is strong enough to hold a future..

which is a unknown if there is,it is very rare..

people might laugh or scold me behind my back..

there's a hole infront of you but you insist on walking to it..

to people it might be a hole,a disaster..

but to me,it might be a place that for a heart to settle..

why must your life depend on other's people words..

if is your happiness..

true friend will accept and happy for you..

only you know what's your happiness is..

different people have different thinking..

want to satisfy everyone,is impossible..

your decision might affect someone you loved..

don't hurt them by your indecisive..

your duty is your heart..

god have given each of us a heart..

fulfil it by listening to your heart..

the key to your heart is within you..."

erm..trying to figure out this poem...use your heart to feel it... :-) don't ask me who wrote this.. my role is to read..yours also..to you,is it important who wrote it??anyway as long as it make sense to you that's it right..

2006-06-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

sLeEpY.....n wU LiAo dE wO.....

everyday after school duno go where..~sianz~..probably will go home sleep ba as the rest of the bombers is either meet bf or meet gf lor..haha..BUT today WENDY WUN WEI XIAN wanted me to acccampany take driving test(what test u dun ask me,cos i dun rmbr the name..is BTT or what de)she say maybe i am her lucky star..she have took the test for around 5 times... everytime is jie(her bf) accompany her go so this time drag me along..maybe can change her luck(c blame on her bf..didn really study say didn really study..don't find excuse..haha..jus kidding) GUESS WHAT??she FAIL again..(-_-")it doesn't prove that i'm not her lucky star lor..she still say i'm her lucky star..know why??she say last time jie accompany her she got 37..now i accompany her she got....41..c i'm lucky...haha..actually no such thing de la..is because of ur effort..is not because of me..how can it be possible because of me??go out with them also a bit stress..suddenly like WAR...Xian dulan...jie,the more he talk,the more she dulan...argue argue..wanna let them settle themselve ended up the fire gets bigger..then is time for my role to come..haha..fire extinguisher...try to put out the fire..buy things also can quarrel..talking also can..after that i'm so tired,i fall asleep in train..half dead..i thought girls don't have to go for war..haha..*NOTICE TO BOMBER--never never go out with this couple alone...very very tiring..is advisable to have 2 or more people to be with you..(Wendy wun..jus kidding la..haha) ok,overall the outing is ok la..beside of those thing i have mention earlier..the rest should be ok.. meeting my mum at tiong bahru plaza..they also went there...then they having hard time to chase my mum to say bye bye as my mum walking very fast and they are walking too slow..haha...oh..still have one more..we bought something...i bought one too...hehe....they have a argument when buying that "thing"....the conversation is like that..
~the girl(xian) say :"i don't want"
~the guy(jie) say: "But i want.."
~the girl(xian) say: "if u want,u buy for yourself..I don't want!!"
~the guy(jie) say: "this type of thing must also have you ma..i alone no meaning..."
*the victim(that's me!) stand in the middle..don't know what to say....so i decided to.......
continue next post..this post a bit too long liao..wanna know what "thing" they are arguing?c my mood next time ba..haha...bye bye..i told u i very wu liao le..so will do a bit wu liao things...

2006-06-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

Sentosa trip.....

from the morning 7 am onwards i was very busy...cooking the lunch for them....is really quite tiring...BUT something happened later on....
when i was briefing the rest of the BODs about the games...i saw someone very familiar walking with jen they all..IS DEAR!!haha..he trying to hide but he is so tall,from far i can see him..i'm really really surprised to see him at that time..i'm very happy too..i really didn't expect him to come..as i asked him 3 times,he said he won't be able to make it..it really never cross my mind that he will turn up..cause i know he's busy with cheerleading..
Of course personally i'm very happy,he also helped out in the bonding alot..i really don't have much experience about this, the rest of BODs also..so a bit messy...he helped us to gather everyone..get things started..of course the rest of the BODs did a great job too...help out in whatever way they can..but i'm a bit disappointed of some of the interacters...they keep running away from the activities...called them countless times...they went some where else without informing anyone..refuse to play games..haiz..nothing i can do..no use forcing or what..i just ignore them if they don't want to be part of us..
Then after that,dear,me,xian,jie,shaley and a group of malay girls went to harbourfront centre eat our dinner and do some shopping..but the malay girls left after dinner..today also wei and jie 11 months anniversary..but seem like have alot of "light bulbs" hanging around them...haha.. sorry ar,wei..
After the sentosa trip is really very tired..actually dear did u realised something..this is the first time u accompany me the whole day?maybe that explain why i'm so happy..i know you are very busy that's why can't keep meeting me..but today i really appreciate the effort you made..spend the whole day with me..i know you skip your things to come..i really appreciate it..thanks for making my day!!love you....
Below is a test result i do..brain test..haha..maybe this can explain a bit why my maths is so bad and reason why sometime my things are quite messy..haha..

"The Right Hemisphere of your brain is dominant over the Left! "
Most right-brained people like you are flexible in many realms of their lives. Whether picking up on the nuances of musical concerto, appreciating the subtle details in a work of art, or seeing the world from a different perspective, right-brained people are creative, imaginative, and attuned to their surroundings. People probably see your thinking process as boundless, and that might translate to your physical surroundings as well. Some people think of you as messier than others. It's not that you're disorganised, it's just that you might use different systems to organise (by theme, by subject, by colour). Straight alphabetisation and rigidly ordered folders are not typical of right-brained behaviour.

AND!!i want to share this song with you guys..i love this song when i first heard it..it was months ago...i like the song lyric..the song lyric don't apply to me now ok..don't think what happen to me and my boyfriend.. we are ok..just concentrate in the song..mind no need run wild..haha..

“Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

Because of you

2006-06-22T11:45:00.000+08:00

dying.....

Oh my god..my stomach cramp..now in sch...no idea how to go back home..still have meeting after sch...my back ache,stomach cramp...sobz..having lesson now..finishing in half an hour time.. i really need someone to help me this time....i'm too weak liao................i hate stomach cramp...

2006-06-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

Argh......!!!!!

i'm so irritated now..just now almost finish updating my blog then my sister came in and accidentally switch off my computer..everything gone...AH................
Few weeks ago,alot of things happened..but is over...thanks god..but others things coming...camp.. bonding..after the training camp i have been sick til now..flu...headache..giddy..but no matter what must wait till the sat interact bonding over..the BOD say i must not fall sick before the bonding..haha..i'll try..but really not feeling well this few days..
this sat,interact bonding,i'm in charge of the food for BOD and the bomber squad..haha..a group of white mouses ...don't worry i do have some cooking skill...won't kill...is edible..my family tried before..i tried before too..still alive and kicking..so 100% safe...haha..but after that what wll happen..who knows..haha..just kidding...
yesterday 20 june is dear and me 4th anniversary...hehe...love u lots...i'm v happy that to have u by my side...hope that there will be many many many more months...always together...love u..miss u..muacks!!
ok..this sick person is going to rest..will continue next time when she feeling better..haha.. take care everyone!!!

2006-06-14T12:36:00.000+08:00

hEaRt bRoKeN.......

silent is golden...i think i must learn try to be silent...trying best to help someone who i consider as best friend ended up just get her cold words and saying us not understanding her,not accepting her...i always thought if we notice any thing wrong of a friend we should tell them and help them change..i have put in alot of effort to help..even if i was like acting like a bad guy,i don't mind..But what happened in the end?My effort is not even appreciate and end up with a name of "not understanding"..our names are deleted from her blog...when we know about how sad we are..our friendship is so fragile...just a small thing like that can change so much...i just over estimate everything..over estimate myself...our friendship..our understanding...is just of my one sided thinking...now you also teach me something silent is golden...i should be silent in the beginning..keep myself out of everything...then nothing will have happened..i always thought that friends should always help each other..try all your best to help..this time round is really a disappointing one..ya,your primary and secondary school friend all stood by you and accept who you are.. Didn't we?When things happened did we just stand at the side and watch?didn't we worried for you?put all our brain together to think of a solution for you?We have say you about your temper all that because is something bad and have to change..We cannot say we must accept friend everything..A good friend should point out the bad and help them change....maybe my thinking is wrong...and you always said i'm simple minded... think things in a simple form is better than in a complicated one..simple make your life easier and happier isn't it...we only live once,why must make it a difficult one..trying to make all of us as one..i,alone,can't do it..only the 6 of us can make it happen...am i too naive to think that if you treat someone sincerely they will feel it..and appreciate it?trying to be understanding is it right or wrong..showing tolerance is a wrong act?someone correct me if i'm wrong please...!!!you said i have high tolerance..but it will used up one day...but now is not about tolerance le..most importently,i'm very disappointed..if i'm making effort,i just hope that people will appreciate that..

2006-06-12T13:51:00.000+08:00

a BuSy wEEk........

last fri,i hv the meeting wif the BODs to discuss abt the bonding things on 24 june..haiz..trying to get people to go so we make it as compulsory...den sat is kat birthday..6 couple gather again..i'm quite happy..i think the one most enjoy is the guys ba..haha..playing bball together..after that things don't really goes well la..but i hope everyone won't keep it in the heart..don't put hatred in you..since is over,just let it go..there are people that experience the same thing as you..just that we didn't say and want to forget about it...keep remembering it don't do you any good lor..let us speak for ourselves,don't speak for us..as what you think maybe wrong..after all that your thinking..and like i always said don't put words in our mouths..we haven't utter a word yet..we are not blaming you..and we also don't blame you..what is over we also don't want to talk about it..but whatever you said please think thrice..you might hurt someone unintentionally.. think for the person feeling..u sit down and think about it..who have you cause stress to..we don't be too selfish just think for ourselves..as what we did will affect others too..especially those who are close to you..what you said have affected her one way or another...
This week will be a bit busy for me as i got a training camp..2 days 1 night..sianz..don't feel like going at all but don't have much choices..AHH.........sobz...
on kat bdae i'm very happy too as i get to see dear...haha...miss him..
miss you always....muacks..bb..

2006-06-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

wE pUt FeAr iN uS...

Is over...finally over...our ENT presentation...on that day,even jas was scared..i was quite puzzled,why is she scare when she do it so many times and she have the whole squad with her... then slowly..i realised the whole squad was nervous...haha..except me..i'm the abnormal one..i think is because i'm so tired and sleepy on that day,i can't feel a thing..just wanna finish it once and for all...but i notice something..a guy from other group like to shoot questions to groups with only girls..Well..i was kind of expect him to shoot us questions....and he really did...if you were there,you can see my group is nervous..jas,jen,xian..kat a bit..the 3 of them is the obvious one..when we went back to our seat then he start asking..he ask the 1st question then jen answer it straight away just to shut him up..BUT...she gave the wrong answer which make him have a chance to shoot us back..haha..but never mind..i having the feeling like "what does he want?" ..i turned round and look at him and answer the question...i think i kind of shock him or what..he was like taken back..did i sound harsh or what..i don't know..but next thing i know,the class is laughing..even the teacher...there was like alot of question marks on top of my head..did i miss out something...jas said i sound a bit fierce..i didn't mean to show that..maybe because i'm too tired..just want to end it but this fellow like never ending..at last he shut his mouth up.. haha..
tomorrow,there's still have interact thing and during evening time will have kathryn birthday bbq...!!!update next itme...

2006-06-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

Game is dangerous...

Based on my experience and my friend experience...DOTA(game) is proven to make a guy to forget their girlfriend(name,suname..etc)haha...why i said so...erm...yesterday i was talking to dear on phone,he was playing dota...when i talk to him,he will take some time to reply me..so i try testing him..i asked him..what is my surname..haha...guess what he said..LEE...so from this i can see,when a guy playing game..he cannot really forget alot of thing..haha...after he play the game den things back to normal again,is ok..haha..can also heard him scolding and scolding.. this is what he do when playing game..a bit like little kid..haha..but i like it..quite cute..as long as he dun totally forget about me can liao..haha..think he won't..:-p
Today our sch conduct a blood donation drive..haha..rather scary..cos u see the needle all that..oh my god...is so disgusting..i dun dare to donate..even though i want..i'm too scare of pain le..from young i'm scare of injection..until now still cannot conquer the fear..so too bad..-_- Today meet shu ting..going around shopping..so long didn shop wif her le..we miss her alot too.. even though she not in the same sch as us anymore,nothing have change..we still crap alot..play.. haha..doing all those lame things..she say she misses us alot..we miss her alot too..always feeling something missing...haiz..but is for her future..even thiugh we can't always see her,our friendship won't change...when she need us,we still will be there...TING!!must rmbr that..dun cry alone..we will be right beside u..:-)when i see u cry today,i feel like crying too..haha..u keep saying is i cause u to cry..i didn lor..i talk half way den u started crying...u see..when u cry infront of us..we will be sad with u..but in the same time,we will make you smile agian..thanks for ur chocolate..is very nice..cya on kat bdae..6 couples will gather again..!!!!muack..love ya..

2006-06-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

Have to be strong.....

i'm a zombie today...really..only sleep for 3 hrs,den went to sch still have s&w..running and playing basketball..still lost to wendy...-_-...wendy wun..you very bad lor..dun wanna take shi min..ask u pair up with her you dun wan...say she wun move..so i pair up with her..u know she was looking at u...when you hinting me..so i faster say i pair with her n u with gina...i'll win u again de..haha...that stupid jen only neo how to stand there and say this and that..can't even rmbr our score..haiz..still say next time we play wanna join us too..go there sun-tanning ar..i'm really very sleepy,wanted to sleep but i can't..i can't..i can't!!!!sobz...dun ask me why..why i sleep only 3 hrs?? waiting and waiting lor...haiz...my brain is half dead...the whole person is half dead...with so little sleep,the project things make my head big...felt that i'm quite useless sia...
~~message to bomber squad~~
friends..there will be always disagreement...most importantly is that we must sit down and talk to each other calmly...who didn't do anything..who didn't give ideas..all that..we can talk..i dun want because of this to start any quarrel..we depend on each other de..u all always say won't quarrel la..u dun just say,,ur temper is not good...don't know when out of control thing..if anyone feel that the responsibilities she holding is too much to handle..we can talk...ok?i don't want that at the surface is ok but in the heart you all don't feel right...dun becos of a module den things change..we are good friends..so everything can talk out...ok..?^_^i'm a computer dumb so i can't help much in power point all that...but i'll try my best to help in other area like hand on de..
As for dear..one sentence...I MISS YOU ALOT... two weeks didn't see u le...hope to see you soon...^_^

2006-05-31T17:43:00.000+08:00

new blog skin....

hehe...i change a new blogskin..c tis blog skin v nice..nw at wei hse doing project..haha..end up eating pizza..but stil got do some work..only me,jen n wei..jas celebrate her mum bdae..as 4 kat,she went back to accompany clement..having problem with the project sia..duno what to do..jen still playing maple..so childish..haha..this only apply to her la..other people play ok la..like jas,wei,kat is ok..haha...very tired..wanna slp..
dear,i wun break the contract with u de..no matter what..the guy wun make me change my mind at all..i neo u r busy that why can't acc me..i really understand..u busy with ur training..n is very important to u..i'm also proud of u that u didn gif up the training even though there ppl gif up cos they cannot take it...since u have started,is better that u finish it..and now ur trainimg going to end le..tml is ur performance..bt there's no more ticket le so i can't see..so if u have any photo or video muz show me ar..hehe..i wanna how u look like in ur costume..hehe..dun say "u go find guy who can acc u de lor.."..u shld neo that i wun..u r my one n only..u muz take care of urself..u keep hurting urself..bt i neo u get hurt also becos u try to save the flyer from falling..u so brave ar..even get hit on ur neck..my dear so brave..hehe..k la,got to go le..going to scold jen,not to play maple liao...jas,if u c this,u should neo what to do...haha..jus kidding la..gif her a break...dear,gd luck to u for ur tml performance...i neo u will do a great job..^_^muack...

2006-05-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

Lesson learnt from church..

1st tm going there,surprising didn slp yet i learn something..i 4get to write at my previous post..so after reading this muz read my previous post..
A lady told us abt a conversation abt her n her neighbour...her neighbour,the whole family is going oversea 4 a holiday...bt the husband onlt staying 4 abt a day den he will leave the family n going to another country,kinda a business trip..he dun really spend alot of time wif his family memebers..due to his work..den the lady said,ppl tend to neglect his loved ones becos of his work or anything he's doing..u should nv nv use this as an excuse..cos no matter how busy,u should not neglect those u care 4..there's still slot she said bt cnt really rmbr al..bt is kinda a reminder to me..hey frenz..sorry ar,i keep saying i'm busy den kinda keep rejecting u all..i nw trying to squeeze time out le..i hv plan up a schedule..so i'll msg u al k..den we go out..hehe..i neo we didn meet up for months..n some r v v gd frenz of mine..bt i didn make tm 4 u al..i'll meet u all asap..k..i didn 4get u al..i promise..muack..hehe..

2006-05-29T20:10:00.000+08:00

n*U*m*B*e*D..........

Today,bomber squad only me n jen went to sch..the rest mc..everyone seemed to be sick..me?look like a panda..y?if u neo me,u neo y..dun have explain..haha..alot of things coming up..really alot..i draw up a schedule,every week have things on..flooded.. going crazy...
I went to church on sunday with jas..1st time..kinda blur..duno how the things goes..jas keep telling me to relax..1st time only..slowly learn..jas's dad oso v helpful..willing to help me clear my doubts..thanks alot...but on that day dun have the time to consult him as i'm rushing down to expo to pass dear his shoe for practicing..it was raining on that day but we have no choice but to walk in the rain...i was so scare i will be late den it will delay dear practice or wat..den i called him..1st time didn picked up..i thought he was busy or wat..after 5 min i called again..i jus dun sense rite..den i keep calling..GUESS WAT?he jus wake up...he even asked me the time..is already 11.30am..his practice is at 12..haha..i went to expo passed him the shoe..i waited around half an hour ba den i saw him..he stil have the blur look on his face..so cute..haha..we meet around 10 min..den he went to his practice..erm..can this called as meeting up..if is a no,den i think we didn meet out for around 10 days..he's really v busy..he's performing soon..this coming thurs..hope he can get the ticket 4 me n te rest..really wanted to see how is it..cos he practice 4 so long..surely v nice..hehe..oso wan to c him in his costume..wonder how he look like.. *tHiNkInG*ok..jus pray hard he can get the tickets..i haven got a chance to tel him wat i wanna tel him..there r things i wanna tel him b4 i forget..bt every nite he called,i'll asked him abt his practice..it seem like alot of things happened..i listen until i forget that i wanna tel him something..if not it will be he's v tired le,wanna slp cos he practice for long hrs..so trying to find suitable time to talk to him..mayb after his performance..wen he's more free..
Today went wif jen to find fm..kinda shop a bit lor..fm seem a bit different from the last itme i c him..bt duno wat's te different..cnt really point out..erm..k la, stopping here..update nx tm..may b fast,may b hv to after sometime..^_^

2006-05-25T20:58:00.000+08:00

Life r so short................

Two days ago,milo died...jus now poppy died...within 3 days i have lost my 2 dogs...why?why? Thinking back not long ago,i was playing with them secretly..cos my brother dun like them to cum out as they will dirty the place..i was caught by him playing with the dogs..he scolded me.. both of us quarrel..we were yelling at each other..they always said that i'm very dirty..the dogs jumps on me..i like hugging them like soft toy..i like the smell of them although everyone in the family felt that is very smelly..recalling last time,during weekend,poppy will jumps onto my bed in the morning to wake me up n milo is too short to jump up on my bed,he will try to reach up n keep barking at me...want me to carry him up..and i will carry the both of them..hug them..den my sister will start yelling..'Dogs are not allow on the bed!!!'all these memories like happened not long ago..now they are gone..i always get scolding because of them cos everytime i let them out,milo will shit on the floor..as he was not properly train yet...last time i have a dog..shadow.. after an accident,he can't walk..the two legs behind became too weak to support his body..i looked after him for 3 yrs...i keep doing some leg exercise on him and finally he able to stand up for a few seconds..i was so happy then..at that time,wen the accident happened,the vet say the chances that he can recover is quite low..at first he can't even sit,he can only lay there..den slowly he can sit den slowly he can stand a bit..and because of him,i quarrel with my mum countless time..she don't like my dog as when he shit n urine,it will stain on his fur which will be very smelly..i bathe him almost everyday..in order to keep him clean..cleaning him have to take hours..still have to comb his fur..my dog is a labrador..he's so big size..he's weight is over 20kg..so when i carry him and bathe..i was like half dead..really need alot of force..slowly i also get used to it..my mum like hated him alot..she keep saying i face him like face her more..n i treat him like also beta..some time my sister will help me..shadow is from dog unit..my brother used to work there..he brought him to our house..but on the day that he come,he met with an accident..can it say bad luck or what..first day..this kind of thing happened..after a year or so..my family wanted to put him to sleep..and again..i quarrel with them..i refused..i scolded them heartless..cold blooded..i have never quarrel with them until so bad..i keep crying..den i said most to most i pay for his food..i was very angry with my brother at that time..he bring the dog back but i was the one looking after him..whenever we quarrel he wil said "i brought him back",den i will said "u brought him back but i'm the one looking after him..so u have no right to let him die.."but lucky my tears did work..imagine..3 yrs of quarrel over same issue..but in the end..shadow still died..i was quite angry with my mum..really..i dun feel like talking to her...
Haiz..i always dream to have dogs running around my house...but this don't seem quite possible for me..unless i'm not staying there anymore..haha..did think before..when i have the ability,i want to move out..but my mum sure wun allow..she say i can only move out when i get married..haha..so is like only a dream..shadow,poppy,milo...i'll always remember u all..the times we spend together...god bless u...

2006-05-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

Giddy....

Haiz...so many thing happened in a day,trying to digest everything..Yest is kinda a v bad day..get involve in something tat doesn't directly concern me..Things start to happened when i was happily taking my nap..den a call made me have to give up my sleep..ask me to be a peace maker..why everytime is type of job will come and find me..haiz..den i try lor..ended up i became the piss maker..i talk until wanted to vomit blood..and i become a very "pissful" person..the person is too stubborn..both of us have different logic..so kinda quarrel a bit..but i didn't blow up as i was involve to be a peace maker not a trouble maker..but ended up i think i don't want to get involve so to save a few years of my life..the result....let see a few days later..
Then..another news giving me another impact..my dog,milo,is sick..he still a puppy..so young..haiz..i'm very worried about him..see him getting more and more skinner..so heart pain.. Today my bro bring him to see a vet..the vet say there's worm in his stomach..is a kind of virsesmay or may not survive..please god..let him pull this through..don't let him die so early..he refuse to eat..even the worm can be kill,he might already die of hunger..There's nothing i can do..nothing nothing nothing!!my head hurts..giddy..i really don't have much mood to help other le..i'm so sorry,i can't even help myself..My brother just told me that my dog may not survive tonight..cause he keep lying there..too weak to move..i keep hearing my bro said that he going to die..his body is getting cold..i think really can't pull it through................i'm so giddy..headache..i'm scare..i need u now..but i know you are busy..
i don't feel like going to sch tml..i dun wanna fake any smile wen i really dun feel like smiling..also don't want to spoilt anyone else mood..hope you all can understand..milo get well soon please... vet can't help u,u have to help urself..

*after 5 min i write this,my dog died...he's gone..milo is gone..

2006-05-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH!!!!!i'm so angry..

okok..all i said is all rubbish..wat ur other frenz said is true...i'm thinking 4 ur sake bt ended up wat happened...u said u hv temper,i oso hv temper..everyone hv..everyone hv 2 control..if everyone nt happy den start showing face,quarrel den the whole world v busy liao lor..the last tm i can tel u is dun do thing thing wen u r nt calm enough cos u may regret after tat..

2006-05-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

3rd month anniversary...

Today is me n dear 3rd month anniversary..nw think back,the 1st month anniversary like passed nt long ago..nw 3 months le..tis time i make something 4 him..i make cookies n chocolate 4 him..i oso bought a basketball shirt 4 him..sorry dear if the cookie n chocolate nt v nice..hehe.. 1st tm ma..pai sei..i neo the cookie wen i bring it to u is nt tat nice le..nt as nice as wen it freshly baked..haiz..i put it in the box..n is nt tight so the cookie becum a bit too soft..although u say u like eat soft cookies..i duno u trying 2 coax me so i wun b tat disappointed..or u really like soft cookies...haha..bt i really wan u to try the cookie tat i freshly baked de..is like jus nice..nt too hard n nt too soft..bt ended up..erm..hehe..actually u oso shldn hv eat,in another words i shldn hv baked n make cookie n chocolate cos u stil coughing..like getting worse..haiz..how cum i overlook tis..wat a lousy gf..the cookie cannot keep long de..cos i didn use a plastic bag to seal it so cannot keep long..i think mayb tml u can throw it le..i'm ok wif it..i dun wan ltr u eat le stomachache..haha..n u oso cnt eat..hehe..dear,happy 3rd month anniversary..!!!i still rmbr u promise me to acc me go shopping n make a pair of new spect..hehe..waiting 4 the day u r free...
i went to wei hse make cookie,make the kitchen a bit messy ar..sorry wei..i was like alot of thing 2 do..baked cookie,make chocolate,wrap the gift..the wrapper i last min den manage to find the type i wan..i find 4 a long tm..so u hlp me to clean up..thanks alot!!muack..if nt 4 ur hlp,i duno wat the cookie will look like..u hlp me alot..teaching me..i spend hrs doing,u watch me for hrs..c anytit went wrong..really thanks alot..n ESPECIALLY THANK TO WEI JIE TOO..thank 4 "HELPING" me wen i v busy by keep interrupting...thanks alot ar..u only dare 2 do tat wen i'm v busy..too busy to open my mouth..looking at wei account,i wun say anytit oso..nw u neo how lucky u r 2 hv her..n WEI!!keep all tat rubbish thinking out of ur mind..dun let ur mind run wild..mind keep running to the wild is nt gd..haha...k la,dun joke liao..really thanks alot..
yest is oso our class bonding..ok la..quite fun chatting..wif mrs quek oso..bomber squad went,ayu group some cum,EE tat group cum bt went hm after a while n the guys,karmila grp cum too..keep eating n chatting..say like class bonding bt nt really like is more like 'groups' bonding..nt every group can bond wif each other lor..so only some groups bond..haha..some group a bit too 'CUTE' v hard to bond..haiz..we r v rough de..so nt v click..over all bonding still ok lor..fun eating n chatting..

2006-05-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen,i'm hereby to present my most cute n lovely dogs--Poppy(big 1-female) and milo(small 1-male)!!!

They are so cute rite!!!Dear always say dog and owner will look alike,cos he have a cute dog too..i always said is that so...Now i totally agreed with what he said..haha...:p

2006-05-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

Interact club orientation..

Tuesday was interact club orientation,everything was fine...Just find the process quite fun..At the beginning,there was not alot of people there so the BOD kind of panicked a bit..And for is the first time being a MC,i even more panicked..When it was about to start,people beginning to come..late is better than never..The fun part was the game in charge by Dorothy..she,herself is scared...keep asking me to help her so i tried my best to help her to bring up the atmosphere as people are kind of dead in there..The game is blow wind blow..it is a very common game but surprisingly there are people who don't know how to play..One of our BOD don't know how to play(The one and only guy in BOD-Lian Cheng)i asked him he stay at which mountain or cave..he said he have no childhood..haha..as if..ah gong kia..ok,game started then everything going find who could not find a place to sit then will have qns for them to ans..but dorothy didn't prepared enough qns so we last min pop out a few..our president,Goh Wan Ni,ask who is our club service director and we given her a very obvious clue that is a guy..but she don't know the name,so i give her two choice-1-Lian Cheng,2-Lian Hua(Lotus)..haha..everyone laugh at him lor..even the teacher laugh at him..:p..he hit my head immediately..then is wan ni turn..student have to guess her name..of course we did introduced ourselve in the beginning..is me to give her the choice again..1-Goh Wan ni.2-Goh Ni Ni..haha..she wanted to kill me when i said this..te orientation ended at around 5.30..But when they signing up that time,i'm very sad..cause only 5 people sign up for sphere,Lion Befriender n APSN also win me..each have 1 more than me..all of them take the paper and show off(argh..!!)But overall SPHERE STILL HAVE MORE MEMBER THAN THEM!!!so is ok..is ok..only lose out a bit at orientation..haha..will catch up de..Actually the BODs can more or less click la,everytime gather together,is quite fun joking around..

2006-05-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

Dear i love u..muack!!!

Haha..today i'm v happy..cos today morning,wen i was kinda preparing 4 sch..bt in my heart there's a feeling dun feel like going..so kinda do things v slow..den suddenly my phine rung..it cut off after it ring once..den i thought is wei calling or who..so i thinking 2 finish my thing den go c my phone..bt after a few sec the phone rung again..i was quite puzzled..who will keep calling so early in the morning.....GUESS WAT????IS DEAR!!!!!he specially called me n gif me a morning call..i was so happy n shocked..haha..u guy will think tat am i kinda crazy 2 get so happy over tis..bt if u neo his habit u wil find it special..he usually slp at 2 plus or 3am...den wake up around 1+ til 2..the nite b4 we tok on phone almost 2 den i go n slp..he slp ltr den me..so he gif me a morning call at 6 plus which say he slp only 3,4 hrs...of course after tat he wil go back 2 slp..bt at least he make the effort 2 gif me a morning call..cos normally i wil b the 1 giving him the morning call..tis tm is different...hehe...dear..thanks alot..
today we(me,jas,kat,wei,clement,daryl,weijie)went out wif ting oso fun la..the guys join us ltr de..cum find their gf..we gt alot of tit 2 say..alot of crap...hva fun tm at causeway.. long tm didn c her like alot 2 tel her..roday can say everytit goes v well except my health..i keep having stomachache n vomit out the food i hv ate..haiz..bt stil ok la..wun die..n the KDS oso ok..didn bad happened..Thanks god...haha..hope tml will oso go well..tml i hv the interact club orientation..i'm the mc..hope everytit wil goes well..tis is my 1st tm..nw muz pray hard le.. haha..stopping here le..bye!!:-)

2006-05-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

PHOTOS!!!

i jus uploaded some pic..show u guys nw...mother day celebration,we went 2 k box!!

2006-05-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

ERM.........................

Today is kinda a boring day 4 me...looking after my little devil nephew..haiz...sometime he's really very cute..sometime he can really make my blood boil..no matter how many times i tell him not to do it,he don't seem to understand..but don't why i'm quite sleepy these few days..the number of hours i sleep is around 6-8 is not that bad..but keep feeling sian,wanna rest..i try going out..bt is either my friend not free or we don't know where to go..
Yesterday i meet up with dear..same place at tiong bahru plaza..haha..after his work shop he came n eat dinner with me..haha..he make me eat what i dislike--carrot--no choice hvv to eat it..dear say so ma..haha..since young i dun dare 2 eat carrot..dun like the taste..we meet up 4 around 1 hr plus den he say he wanna go hm le..he's tired..den we headed hm separately..bt suddenly my frenz cal n said wanna buy my another frenz present so i went out again..these 2 days is kinda sian..nothing much 2 do..every1 dun seem to b free..haiz..thinking of mon got happy n oso sad..sad is mon i hv KDS!!!!!die liao..the tacher super strict lor..n my typing so slow duno will get any scolding from her anot..hopefully wun get any..she make me so scare of going her lesson.. den happy is we will be meeting ting!!!haha..hardly can c her le..ever since she went to RP..miss the day wen we r together..lesson ending at 3..den we go find her..haha..actually tis sem our timetable is really super short lor..until we kinda hv alot of spare tm..duno do wat..sometime we can go walk walk together..bt sometime they will be meeting bf so i hv 2 go hm lor..or find other programme..nw having headache to prepare the speech 4 the interact club orientation..k la,stopping here..update some other day...

2006-05-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

Thinking.....

Sitting down n really think..it sound easy bt is nt really easy wen u r doing it..ppl r alw too busy n think n listening 2 wat their heart is telling them..ppl tend 2 listen 2 other ppl n 4get 2 listen 2 ur own heart..slowly slowly ppl wil take over ur heart..some decision might b hard,is different from other ppl thinking,against rules..bt as long as is nt doing any bad thing is ok..some ppl may think tat wat u do is wrong,is jus tat they dun understand ur stand..doing something against ur heart is something v terrible,painful n ltr on u wil regret 4 nt doing it in wat u believe..true frenz will gif u some advice bt wun force u go their way as 2 them ur happiness is their main concern..last tm i duno..i mean well bt end up doing tit wrongly,hurting my frenz..making them go my way..den wen i was in trouble..feeling lost of wat 2 do..1 of my frenz told me her opinion..den i asked her,so i hv 2 follow ur advice?she said"to me,in the end did u follow my advice is nt impt..wat i concern more is u r happy..n tat's all..wat decision u made in the end u r facing it..so other ppl cannot force u go their way cos they r nt suffering in ur place if things went wrong.."tat senrence really is like a wake up call 2 me..wen u r helping ppl r u trying 2 put ur thinking inside other ppl head..the person interest in the most impt things..
So maybe u can take some time n sit down listen 2 ur heart..wat's inpt 2 u..wat u really care..

2006-05-07T19:49:00.000+08:00

~*BOMBER SQUAD!*~

Yest went 2 celebrate jen's birthday..the bomber squad bring along their bf so is kinda big group of ppl..we went to yuki yaki..haha..hv a great tm making ice cream..we until the ice cream..erm.. haha,..taste a bit weird..every1 find it so gross..haha..
i n dear bought a couple t shirt..he bought 2..n 2 4 me..hehe..we hv couple shirt le..dear 1 is black n white..mine is the blue(dear fav colour) n beige...gal 1 only gt 3 colour...blue beige n pink..i dun wan pink cos ppl always say wen i wear pink look like xiao mei mei..;-( i dun wan..some more is too sweet le ba..i dun match pinky stuff..yest happen alot of tit ba..i n dear tok alot le..i wanna apologise 2 dear..i'm sorry..i love u..muack...i'll keep my promise..
i hope ting wil b ok by nw..haiz..relationship really nd alot of effort..n nd the both side if nt the another side wil feel v tiring n lonely..muz keep note r u REALLY putting enough effort in..dun jus say got wat..think carefully b4 u tok..really..is tat enough...i really hope tat bomber squad relationship al wil b fine..so far so gd lor..shld b getting beta nx tm..al of them seem stable..haha..
stopping nw...lastly..JENNIFER TWANG!!!HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HOR!!!muack muack..luv ya..hope u like the present..love from bomber squad..

2006-05-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

Irritated+unwell=Bad mood

these few day kinda a bit easily get irritated...duno y..my eye is really giving me alot of problem.. my left eye start 2 get swollen..even blinking i will feel the pain..oh my god...let alone of putting my contact lens...my eye hv been red since a few days ago..den itchy oso..AH.......my eye bcum smaller lor..den a bit swollen..keep feeling sleepy..v tired..bt at nite bcum quite alert..stupid man..
dear borrow some vcd from me...i recommended DESCENT..v nice..although is a bit gross...i passed it 2 him around 10 plus at nite..meet him at mrt..we chat 4 a while only cos he say his frenz waiting 4 him upstair..we ended our conversation..erm..tat was a tues...
this coming sat is celebrating jen bdae lor..going out 2 eat bt hvn decide whr..cos fm dun wan eat steamboat he say v smelly after tat...haha..den the bomber squad find it v funny...a guy complaining..wen we gal didn say a single tit...bt nvm..we go whr oso can..every1 will b bringing our bf..so there wil b 12 ppl..
oh..suddenly remember sometit..i return the form..the 1 jas n i were selected..nt going le..mrs quek ask y i dun wan..i jus say i really cnt..jas oso back out le...today's tm seem 2 pass v slow..i feel so bored..somemore today ended at 12pm..so early..nothing 2 do..bomber aquad got sometit on..jas meeting her mum n bf..den tml end even eariler..11am..i duno wat 2 do leh..jas say daryl picking her up after sch..den i tit xian meeting jie oso ba..kat of course meeting clement lor..jen duno wat she doing..haiz..mostly meeting bf..i tit i go hm slp lor..always envy jas sia..daryl wil pick her up wenever he can..1 wk a few tm ba..haha..xian bf straight away walk into ur sch fetch her..he studying at dover..al the way 2 bishan..wa...alone at train around 40 min..plus the walking tm ar..shld b an hr..haha..these few days keep seeing him coming...haha..so sweet.. although he sometime seem v blur..bt can c he dote on xian alot..kat ar..clement waiting 4 her at hm..haha..or they wil b going out..i tit almost everyday...
really nothing much 2 write..hehe..cos nothing much happening..so talk more on my frenz..haha..k la,continue nx tm ba..

4 may 06
thursday 10 pm

2006-05-02T16:26:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL STARTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh my...today is my 1st day of sch of my yr 2...sianz...1st day we al(bomber squad) trying 2 b late 4 sch le..haha..bt its seem tat we r lucky..we reach sch around 8.45 bt we stil nt late yet as it started late..haha...it suppose 2 start at 8 bt bcoz of the new intake so everytit was delay..al the yr 2 hv 2 go 2 auditorium..den mrs heng called my name n jas n some of my classmates..the whole admin department 20 student wil b choose 2 hlp out in a event..i n jas was selected..kinda shocked..we r thinking 2 back out on tis..cos the tm a bit tight..is like a 6 day event tit..everyday after sch hv 2 go expo hlp out..do the preparation tit...wa..wil die sia..bt oso feel tat is a rare opportunity..shld i gif it up anot..tml is the road show 4 the interact club..haiz..i'm involve again.. i'm alw involve in tit sometime i dun even neo..so many interact club tit coming..AH!!!!
den ltr wil hv the Y camp tit..3D2N..sound like chalet ar..haha..bt nt really la..i'm trying 2 persuade my bomber squad pei me...haha..cos i gt no choice hv 2 go bt they can choose..hehe..hope tat they wil go cos oso nt enough ppl ma..
SUPPOSED 2 meet dear yest BUT he 4got tat he meeting me den he meet his frenz le..so we didn meet up..he got call n apologise la..at 1st kinda angry de bt hearing him say sorry n begging me dun b angry is so funny...he always can make me laugh wen i'm angry...quite smart ar..act until so ke lian..like cannot dun forgive him like tat..bt actually i kinda expected liao so stil ok la..mentally prepare a bit le..so nt tat shock..haiz..tis whole wk i tit his schedule is packed le ba.. heard him saying like everyday like gt sometit on.. tat pic is dear n me taken during our installation..he's the outgoing board..i'm the incoming de...haha..discover it myself how 2 add a pic in..ask jas they al hlp me so long hvn do..haha..nvm..i figure out le..hehe..going 2 stop here le...kinda tired jus came back from sch..:-P

2006-04-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

Tired....

working working working...so tired...today i learn how 2 use the cashier thing..oh..is so fun bt at the same tm is scary..today quite boring at 1st den suddenly alot of customers..change the stripes until my finger v painful..my skin start 2 peel off bit by bit..sad..hv 2 keep my nail v short..sobz..jus nw receive a call from dear say he is sick..oh my god..i'm v worried abt him leh..he sound v weak..i asked him dun go 4 the training tml..dun tit he can make it..cos the training nd alot of strength al tat..scare hurt himself..haiz..asked him go c doc..bt duno he really wil ma..i really hope tat tml i dun hv 2 work so i can look after him..if really he stil nt feelin well,i after work go look after him...or if possible i ask whether can leave early..hope he can recover soon..feel bad cnt b wif him wen he is sick..dear i'm sorry ar..luv ya..duno can take half day off ma..k la,continue nx tm..bye..

2006-04-22T12:41:00.000+08:00

Sleepy day again~~~~~

haha...always heard me saying sleepy recently rite..always dun hv enough slp de..cos alw get woke by other ppl or msg..sian..nt 1 tm is i wake up myself..
last nite chat wif dear til around 3+ going to 4...listening 2 him playing his game..haha..his reaction is kinda funny..cute la..wen he play game he can really like a kid...bt i like tat..haha..the way he complain being attacked...haha...i jus kept silent..he tot wat happened 2 me..keep asking me am i ok..i'm ok..oh 1 more tit 2 say..MY DEAR NT LAZY DE...JUS TAT HE'S BUSY..haha.. he say 2 me yest after he read my blog,he's nt lazy lor,he jus v busy..if i wan him 2 find me,he wil lor..i neo tat..for dear-(u so busy how can i demand u 2 acc me..it wil b more tiring 4 u..wait til u free ba..haha..dun 4get tat u promise 2 acc me go shopping..i rmbr tat..haha...)n 1 more tit..dear lie..he say he nv look at my blog b4..in fact HE DID...i was shock la..bt oso happy he actually read my blog..*muack muack..!luv u*
My nagging sister n my 2 dogs woke me up today early in the morning...sian..my siser start nagging around 8+ den my dogs al step on me..licking me..until i cnt slp...haiz..bt they really V V V CUTE...dear say mayb his dog going 2 put at my place 4 a wk cos he's nt free 2 look after nx wk..i oso wan 2 hlp him..some more his dog v cute oso..more dog more merrier..haha..bt duno my mum wil go crazy anot..i'll try 2 convince her...i keep taking photo of my dogs..they r too cute le..alw wanna take a pic of them..ok la,stop al the dog talking b4 i get too excited..haha..
hmm..ltr mayb going down bugis 2 find me frenz..den go suntec fetch my another frenz..so big le stil wan me fetch her..haha..her nick is doggy..from sec sch i gif her tis name le..haha..i tit she love it..we r v gd frenz la..she alw go out of control de..suddenly laugh like a siao cha bo..she's beyond cure..haha..today is 22 apr...tml working..sian..10.30am-10pm..nvm wen get pay i happy le..hehe..k la,stopping here going 2 c wat my little devil nephew doing..bye...

2006-04-21T11:31:00.000+08:00

Lazy~~~~~

since i'm free nw,i update my blog again lor..kinda tired..nw only 11.31am..i wake up at 9 plus cos my fone msg keep coming in..OMG..jus cnt slp liao..den make breakfast 4 myself lor..the rest of my family is out lor..alone...~lonely~..haha..no la,i rather 2 b alone wen at hm..dun like ppl keep nagging me whole day..ltr working at 5pm..work til 10pm..5 hrs..from sun on the hrs is long lor..everyday 10.30am-10.00pm..tired sia..everytime after work like half dead..lucky,i off on mon n thurs..bt thurs gt interact club tit n at nite celebrate my frenz bdae..so tat day oso busy..mon i'm free!!!bt dear surely nt free so hv 2 find programme 4 myself...i promise alot of my frenz tat wil meet them la bt really dun hv tm..n going out wif them hv 2 spend $$..haiz.. going 2 broke soon..tat's y oso dun dare ask u al out la..hope u al can understand..wen i get my pay den i meet u al out again k..we go shopping together..
yest nite dear called..bt i fall a slp while waiting 4 his call..he call around 1 plus in the morning.. wen he tok 2 me i seem a bit slow ar..really tired recently..bt after a while we hang up le cos he's tired wanna slp..the conversation last abt..5-10min??around there...he's so busy n tired..we hv less tm 2 tok n meet ba..sch reopening soon..i think we'll hv even less tm ba..unless he wanna fetch me from sch..erm..dun tit so ba..his hse 2 my sch around 1 hr..he'll b too lazy 2 cum down oso..hmm...dun tok abt tis ba..
i nw working at marina square...crocs..nt bad la..the ppl there r nice..friendly..alw hlp me..bt i feel kinda pai sei..go there shld hlp them bt end up like they helping me..i find thing oso slow..cos stil cnt rmbr whr exactly the tit put..feel so bad n useless sia..adding 2 other ppl burden..am i always other ppl burden ar..feeling like tat..i muz work harder..dun wanna b a burden..OMG.. feeling sleepy liao..lucky stil hva bit tm 4 me 2 slp..nx tm muz consider whether switch off hp wen i slp..bye~~~going 2 b a piggy liao..btw..i hv 2 dogs le...poppy n milo(i choose tis name de).. they r so~~~~~~~~~~~~cUtE!!!muack muack muack....love them...n oso my frenz..n dear too..
bye~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

NAGGING GAL~~Wong Siew Ting

Hello..c ur name here v honour rite..haha..u tit ur name can appear everytime meh..haha..
wonder how cum i put her name??Cos she keep bugging me 2 update my blog..hardly any1 c my blog lor..keep updating duno who wil c..i tit mostly is u liao la..dear didn even cum read my bl;og at al lor...haha..kinda touch sia..u really care 4 me ar..neo u since pri 1..1st tm i felt touched by u.. izzit sometit gd or bad??haha..k la,start my daily things tat u wan me 2 write..
Today,20 apr(2nd anniverary)thurs,i went 2 k box wif yili..n a ke lian person cannot go..keep saying without her we'll b v boring..actually u tit too much...WONG SIEW TING!!we had a great tm..dun b sad la..haha..3 of us neo each other so long liao..until rot le..wonder y didn go celebrate my 2nd anniversary??cos dear nt free...BUT we push it forward n celebrate on tues..we nw really hardly hv tm 2 meet up..he's really v busy...1 whole wk packed...every wk like eat dinner once..around 2 hrs like tat lor..den he every nite call me bt he seem v tired n wen i tok 2 him he like cannot concentrate so i ask him go n slp ba..he wil feel bad la..bt i say nvm lor..he oso too tired 2 continue the conversation..no point too..he's nt listening..too tired 2 listen liao..of course wil miss him la..bt nothing i can do..didn tel him i miss him..nt bcos i shy la..i'm nt tat kind of person la..is i tel him den he feel more bad ba..some more after telling him n didn do anytit or wat i wil feel sad sia..haha...so keep quiet la..nt angry wif him la..try 2 understand his stand...n i neo whr i stand..erm..k la,talk abt sometit else..
walau..i got my result sia...bzc n evm i gt a B n PR a C..sian gt a C again...sad..i dun wan a C!!!! sobz..haiz..i can only blame myself lor..shld work harder..jas gt a A...she called me..she's the 1 hlp me check de..she alw can get a A...i muz work harder nx tm..k la,stppong here..long enough le ba..bye..update again...i'll try 2 update asap k...

2006-04-17T22:43:00.000+08:00

Busy busy busy................

i hv been busy lately ba..dun really hv tm 2 update my blog...chalet..working..cca..anyway alot of ppl oso nt free 2 cum out...after ite chalet den cum the sec sch chalet...den work n work..tis thurs hv interact club tit..gt some free tm in between ba..bt ppl nt free...trying 2 fill my tm fully..mon i stay over at my frenz hse..i hv been drinking until 4 plus..thinking tat after drinking wil make me sleepy..bt no use at al..wake up 11 plus..den go chalet..at chalet oso drink..my frenz drink wif me 1 al cannot tahan liao..i stil wide awake...drink japanese type..beer..volka..tis 2 days hv been drink tat..haha...bt no much use..den slowly bcum more n more tired..really tired..den keep wanting 2 slp..bt i didn slp la..cos busy..wen working tm oso wanna slp..haiz nvm..today 17 apr i at jas hse...n wei too...chit chat lor..hardly c each other bcos of holiday..kinda stress lately..iu tit my brain cell die alot..thinking of a solution..my schedule is filling up le...more n more packed..gd..haha..gotta stop le..going out...bye bye

*Those who hv read my last post..i'm really ok..dun worry k..n thanks alot..

2006-04-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

~Am i askin 4 too much???~

i hv been thinking.........how many ppl wil cum n c my blog???nt much ba..mayb wat i write ppl close 2 me wil nt even c..anyway is nt within my control..if they r interested they wil c..
There r questions running in my mind...alot of tit..wan me 2 say,i dun even neo how..tryin 2 stay calm,dun b too sensitive,dun tit too much...hv u ever try b4 wanted 2 say sometit out bt u jus cnt say out..???erm....
Mayb i'm makin some of u confuse..like tis post dun make much sense..if tat the case simply bcos u r nt the audience i'm addressing to..or mayb u r the1 bt u dun even neo..
how close is consider close??is the distance or the heart??may nt c often stil can b close...n c often bt nt close at al...how long hv u ever put urself in other ppl shoe..i'm always trying.. may nt b always successful bt tryin 2 make the effort...cos understanding the reason can keep u away from argument..hlp u take a different look at the situation...b4 making a big fuss,make a sec thought..if u were him/her...BUT did the person appreciate tat??is the person thinking in ur shoe..alone making effort is tiring...lonely..
Wen u sad,confuse or happy..who wil u turn to???is the person u wanna turn to there??hv u ever hope tat some1 wil turn 2 u wen he/she is sad??2 b the 1 2 share the sadness n happiness n clearing all the confusions...mayb 2 the person u r nt the 1 can solve their problem tat's y they wun turn 2 u..bt they wil "inform" u the problem wen tit is over...
Sorry if u really dun understand wat i'm tryin 2 say..tis post require some thinking...seriously..
tis is nt like normal writing wat i do each day..is sometit more den tat..dun ask me am i alright..I"M PERFECTLY ALRIGHT...seriously...
k la,gonna stop here..stop confusing ppl..haha..DISaAPnPOIgNrTyED...nx entry wil nt b like tis..

9 april(sun)~~12.25am

2006-04-06T10:55:00.000+08:00

jus came back chalet yest..nt feelin well...stomachache...watever i eat wil vomit out..haiz..bt really having a great tm there cos the bomber squad were there n al the bf oso..kinda fun..esp at nite the water bomb..every1 were wet..really v wet.. haha..den dear go n take source n throw at ppl..they cnt catch up wif him cos he ran away..al ended up on me..they make the source al over my face..at nite a pimple pop out...so fast ar the effect...haha..it really fun..n the bdae cake we bought 4 wei al ended up on our body..i didn hv a single bite on it..daryl throw a water bomb on my face n the water went into my nose..he caught me off guard..at 1st i wanna throw him de bt...end up..haiz..wei get hurt by his bf..haha..kinda funny..her bf knock her head n it was v painful until she almost cry..bf supposed 2 protect their gf during water bomb ba..end up is the bf hurting his own gf..he's blur..there were 6 couples...jas-daryl,ting-jeremy, kath-clement,wei-wei jie,jen-feng ming n me-dear(terrence)!!1st tm the 6 couple al out..al the bf seem 2 able 2 click..den we went 4 nite walk..al the haunted area..is really a bit scary..fm n jen seem 2 b v scare..den after tat we went 2 eat..it was abt 3 plus in the morning le..i was so tired..dear oso..seem quite stone..den we went 2 slp..the nx day afternoon..we play pool den 2 the arcade..haha..so fun..playing the basketball..den the car racing..1st round 5 guys n me only..i'm the only gal..haha..guess wat??i win the race..i got 1st den dear gt 2nd..hehe..i'm only lucky..we play there 4 a long tm..k la,stopping here..feelin v sleepy..i went 2 slp around 2 am last nite..den wake up 8 plus..nw goin 2 catch some slp..:p

2006-04-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

today whole day like quite occupied...go 4 the interact talk...til 6..den go find my frenz at bugis..til 8 plus..den meet my other frenz at 9 plus at nite...the interact talk at 1st quite boring den at the end quite ok la...talk abt the trip they made to..den get 2 neo a member...we talk alot..haha..cos some part quite boring..he thinking 2 hv a join project wif our interacters...haha..we jus say only lor bt duno really wil hv ma..sore throat cum back again..sianz..goin out le..my frenz hungry..

12.12am 1 apr 06(april fool)

2006-03-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

shit man..jus nw write 1 den gone..hv 2 write again..today mod v~~~~~~~~bad..moody or bad??i duno..i dun even neo y i feel so..so dun ask me..
Exam exam exam..today paper ok lor..wat i study al cum out..lucky..tis few days slp only a few hrs..sian..headache..i'm sick 4 more den a wk!!!wat's wrong man..
i hope dear exam wil b ok even though he say a bit gone case...hope in the end tit wil turn out rite..he sound moody yest nite..my frenz say so too...waiting 4 his call..hvn receive a call from him yet..hope he feel beta le..
my little devil nephew spilt my tit again..My spect!!!oh my god..nd 2 get a new pair..stop here le..goin out 4 a walk..relax my mind..

10.53pm 28/3/06

2006-03-23T13:54:00.000+08:00

Haiz..Kinda sianz..at jen hse today..SUPPOSE to b studying nw bt the stupid lion wanna slp 4 a while...muhahaha..exam coming le..nearer n nearer..bt really dun hv much mood 2 study oso..my bomber squad al r lazy 2 study too bt really hv 2 force 1 another...they keep thinking abt the chalet..exam hvn over alr thinking of relaxing le..haiz...kinda miss ting.. without her seem 2 b a bit boring..tis wk wil b quite busy ba..working n studying..frenz keep wanna meet me out bt hv 2 reject them...sori..really busy lately..i promise wen i tit is over i'll meet u al out.. :-) Hope u al wun b angry..hehe..dear oso nt free 4 me ba..he say he oso v busy..wkend n nx wk i tit can hardly meet up le..*miss ya*..hmm..today wen eating wif jen,fm n dear.. keep feeling sometit weird ba..mayb bcoz some is nt in a gd mood today..a bit silent..xian lie 2 me lor..say wanna study together bt end up she go hm slp..liar..haha..recently every1 like bcum piggy..yest sick den slp almost 1 whole day..sore throat,a bit fever n feel v weak..after eating the medicine is like no much use..stil the same..tis is the 6th day le..stil hvn recover..my voice bcum v man 4 6 days le..*sobz*i wan my voice back..ppl keep laughing at my voice n my presentation get low mark oso of tis stupid voice..teacher cnt heard wat i say..AHH!!!thing like dun really go so well 4 me ar..tml working le..hopefully everytit is fine..jas if u reading tis,I'M REALLY V SORI 4 JUS NW..DUN ANGRY..I DUN WANNA BUY METAL BRA LA..MUHAHAHA...jus playing wif u..terrence ask me 2 do it de..*Oops* haha..no la..normally i oso let u make me..fair k..gotta stop here,nd 2 wake a lion up n study..is a v dangerous tit..ltr c her hair al stand up..v scary..haha..to be continued...

2006-03-21T13:40:00.000+08:00

yest was me n my dear 1 month anniversary...haha..kinda fast..i'm v happy..hehe..he bought me a small pooh bear..he say look like him..erm..actually take a closer look it really look a bit like him..haha..n a photo frame (with our photo)The best part is wen he c my present..he look so shocked n funny..i didn do anytit funny la..i jus handmade sometit 4 him..hope he wil like it..
Haiz..exam coming le..kinda worry nw..no mood 2 study..bt stil hv 2 do it lor..fri, sat n sun working..mon exam..so time a bit tight..bt after tat hv chalet so quite looking forward ba..haha..nw having lesson bt teacher nt teaching..sianz..dear overslept again..didn cum sch..haiz..piggy..haha..

2006-02-27T19:10:00.000+08:00

hehe...finally gt a blog!!is dear hlp me de cos i duno how 2 create(quite dumb)..today is me n my dear de 1 wk..haha..didn celebrate la..only the 1st wk..waiting 4 the 1 month~2 months~~the longer the beta lor..hehe..oh..i went to MOS..quite fun..oso v tiring..cos dance 4 hours..leg like breakng..n b4 tat in the day tm i go 2 the camp..the camp oso v v fun..my last wk is so fun..camping at sch can c alot of "tit" at nite..haha..bt i didn really manage 2 c much..jus once..dear like keep seeing bt i didn cos dear close my eye wen i look..haha..he dun wan me 2 see..clubbing gt 6 of us(ting,jas,xian,jen,kath n me!)n 3 other guys..jas,kath n xian bf...haiz..nt really in the mood 2 write..kinda tired..