new blog skin....
hehe...i change a new blogskin..c tis blog skin v nice..nw at wei hse doing project..haha..end up eating pizza..but stil got do some work..only me,jen n wei..jas celebrate her mum bdae..as 4 kat,she went back to accompany clement..having problem with the project sia..duno what to do..jen still playing maple..so childish..haha..this only apply to her la..other people play ok la..like jas,wei,kat is ok..haha...very tired..wanna slp..
dear,i wun break the contract with u de..no matter what..the guy wun make me change my mind at all..i neo u r busy that why can't acc me..i really understand..u busy with ur training..n is very important to u..i'm also proud of u that u didn gif up the training even though there ppl gif up cos they cannot take it...since u have started,is better that u finish it..and now ur trainimg going to end le..tml is ur performance..bt there's no more ticket le so i can't see..so if u have any photo or video muz show me ar..hehe..i wanna how u look like in ur costume..hehe..dun say "u go find guy who can acc u de lor.."..u shld neo that i wun..u r my one n only..u muz take care of urself..u keep hurting urself..bt i neo u get hurt also becos u try to save the flyer from falling..u so brave ar..even get hit on ur neck..my dear so brave..hehe..k la,got to go le..going to scold jen,not to play maple liao...jas,if u c this,u should neo what to do...haha..jus kidding la..gif her a break...dear,gd luck to u for ur tml performance...i neo u will do a great job..^_^muack...
Lesson learnt from church..
1st tm going there,surprising didn slp yet i learn something..i 4get to write at my previous post..so after reading this muz read my previous post..
A lady told us abt a conversation abt her n her neighbour...her neighbour,the whole family is going oversea 4 a holiday...bt the husband onlt staying 4 abt a day den he will leave the family n going to another country,kinda a business trip..he dun really spend alot of time wif his family memebers..due to his work..den the lady said,ppl tend to neglect his loved ones becos of his work or anything he's doing..u should nv nv use this as an excuse..cos no matter how busy,u should not neglect those u care 4..there's still slot she said bt cnt really rmbr al..bt is kinda a reminder to me..hey frenz..sorry ar,i keep saying i'm busy den kinda keep rejecting u all..i nw trying to squeeze time out le..i hv plan up a schedule..so i'll msg u al k..den we go out..hehe..i neo we didn meet up for months..n some r v v gd frenz of mine..bt i didn make tm 4 u al..i'll meet u all asap..k..i didn 4get u al..i promise..muack..hehe..
n*U*m*B*e*D..........
Today,bomber squad only me n jen went to sch..the rest mc..everyone seemed to be sick..me?look like a panda..y?if u neo me,u neo y..dun have explain..haha..alot of things coming up..really alot..i draw up a schedule,every week have things on..flooded.. going crazy...
I went to church on sunday with jas..1st time..kinda blur..duno how the things goes..jas keep telling me to relax..1st time only..slowly learn..jas's dad oso v helpful..willing to help me clear my doubts..thanks alot...but on that day dun have the time to consult him as i'm rushing down to expo to pass dear his shoe for practicing..it was raining on that day but we have no choice but to walk in the rain...i was so scare i will be late den it will delay dear practice or wat..den i called him..1st time didn picked up..i thought he was busy or wat..after 5 min i called again..i jus dun sense rite..den i keep calling..GUESS WAT?he jus wake up...he even asked me the time..is already 11.30am..his practice is at 12..haha..i went to expo passed him the shoe..i waited around half an hour ba den i saw him..he stil have the blur look on his face..so cute..haha..we meet around 10 min..den he went to his practice..erm..can this called as meeting up..if is a no,den i think we didn meet out for around 10 days..he's really v busy..he's performing soon..this coming thurs..hope he can get the ticket 4 me n te rest..really wanted to see how is it..cos he practice 4 so long..surely v nice..hehe..oso wan to c him in his costume..wonder how he look like.. *tHiNkInG*ok..jus pray hard he can get the tickets..i haven got a chance to tel him wat i wanna tel him..there r things i wanna tel him b4 i forget..bt every nite he called,i'll asked him abt his practice..it seem like alot of things happened..i listen until i forget that i wanna tel him something..if not it will be he's v tired le,wanna slp cos he practice for long hrs..so trying to find suitable time to talk to him..mayb after his performance..wen he's more free..
Today went wif jen to find fm..kinda shop a bit lor..fm seem a bit different from the last itme i c him..bt duno wat's te different..cnt really point out..erm..k la, stopping here..update nx tm..may b fast,may b hv to after sometime..^_^
Life r so short................
Two days ago,milo died...jus now poppy died...within 3 days i have lost my 2 dogs...why?why? Thinking back not long ago,i was playing with them secretly..cos my brother dun like them to cum out as they will dirty the place..i was caught by him playing with the dogs..he scolded me.. both of us quarrel..we were yelling at each other..they always said that i'm very dirty..the dogs jumps on me..i like hugging them like soft toy..i like the smell of them although everyone in the family felt that is very smelly..recalling last time,during weekend,poppy will jumps onto my bed in the morning to wake me up n milo is too short to jump up on my bed,he will try to reach up n keep barking at me...want me to carry him up..and i will carry the both of them..hug them..den my sister will start yelling..'Dogs are not allow on the bed!!!'all these memories like happened not long ago..now they are gone..i always get scolding because of them cos everytime i let them out,milo will shit on the floor..as he was not properly train yet...last time i have a dog..shadow.. after an accident,he can't walk..the two legs behind became too weak to support his body..i looked after him for 3 yrs...i keep doing some leg exercise on him and finally he able to stand up for a few seconds..i was so happy then..at that time,wen the accident happened,the vet say the chances that he can recover is quite low..at first he can't even sit,he can only lay there..den slowly he can sit den slowly he can stand a bit..and because of him,i quarrel with my mum countless time..she don't like my dog as when he shit n urine,it will stain on his fur which will be very smelly..i bathe him almost everyday..in order to keep him clean..cleaning him have to take hours..still have to comb his fur..my dog is a labrador..he's so big size..he's weight is over 20kg..so when i carry him and bathe..i was like half dead..really need alot of force..slowly i also get used to it..my mum like hated him alot..she keep saying i face him like face her more..n i treat him like also beta..some time my sister will help me..shadow is from dog unit..my brother used to work there..he brought him to our house..but on the day that he come,he met with an accident..can it say bad luck or what..first day..this kind of thing happened..after a year or so..my family wanted to put him to sleep..and again..i quarrel with them..i refused..i scolded them heartless..cold blooded..i have never quarrel with them until so bad..i keep crying..den i said most to most i pay for his food..i was very angry with my brother at that time..he bring the dog back but i was the one looking after him..whenever we quarrel he wil said "i brought him back",den i will said "u brought him back but i'm the one looking after him..so u have no right to let him die.."but lucky my tears did work..imagine..3 yrs of quarrel over same issue..but in the end..shadow still died..i was quite angry with my mum..really..i dun feel like talking to her...
Haiz..i always dream to have dogs running around my house...but this don't seem quite possible for me..unless i'm not staying there anymore..haha..did think before..when i have the ability,i want to move out..but my mum sure wun allow..she say i can only move out when i get married..haha..so is like only a dream..shadow,poppy,milo...i'll always remember u all..the times we spend together...god bless u...
Giddy....
Haiz...so many thing happened in a day,trying to digest everything..Yest is kinda a v bad day..get involve in something tat doesn't directly concern me..Things start to happened when i was happily taking my nap..den a call made me have to give up my sleep..ask me to be a peace maker..why everytime is type of job will come and find me..haiz..den i try lor..ended up i became the piss maker..i talk until wanted to vomit blood..and i become a very "pissful" person..the person is too stubborn..both of us have different logic..so kinda quarrel a bit..but i didn't blow up as i was involve to be a peace maker not a trouble maker..but ended up i think i don't want to get involve so to save a few years of my life..the result....let see a few days later..
Then..another news giving me another impact..my dog,milo,is sick..he still a puppy..so young..haiz..i'm very worried about him..see him getting more and more skinner..so heart pain.. Today my bro bring him to see a vet..the vet say there's worm in his stomach..is a kind of virsesmay or may not survive..please god..let him pull this through..don't let him die so early..he refuse to eat..even the worm can be kill,he might already die of hunger..There's nothing i can do..nothing nothing nothing!!my head hurts..giddy..i really don't have much mood to help other le..i'm so sorry,i can't even help myself..My brother just told me that my dog may not survive tonight..cause he keep lying there..too weak to move..i keep hearing my bro said that he going to die..his body is getting cold..i think really can't pull it through................i'm so giddy..headache..i'm scare..i need u now..but i know you are busy..
i don't feel like going to sch tml..i dun wanna fake any smile wen i really dun feel like smiling..also don't want to spoilt anyone else mood..hope you all can understand..milo get well soon please... vet can't help u,u have to help urself..
*after 5 min i write this,my dog died...he's gone..milo is gone..
AHHHHH!!!!!i'm so angry..
okok..all i said is all rubbish..wat ur other frenz said is true...i'm thinking 4 ur sake bt ended up wat happened...u said u hv temper,i oso hv temper..everyone hv..everyone hv 2 control..if everyone nt happy den start showing face,quarrel den the whole world v busy liao lor..the last tm i can tel u is dun do thing thing wen u r nt calm enough cos u may regret after tat..
3rd month anniversary...
Today is me n dear 3rd month anniversary..nw think back,the 1st month anniversary like passed nt long ago..nw 3 months le..tis time i make something 4 him..i make cookies n chocolate 4 him..i oso bought a basketball shirt 4 him..sorry dear if the cookie n chocolate nt v nice..hehe.. 1st tm ma..pai sei..i neo the cookie wen i bring it to u is nt tat nice le..nt as nice as wen it freshly baked..haiz..i put it in the box..n is nt tight so the cookie becum a bit too soft..although u say u like eat soft cookies..i duno u trying 2 coax me so i wun b tat disappointed..or u really like soft cookies...haha..bt i really wan u to try the cookie tat i freshly baked de..is like jus nice..nt too hard n nt too soft..bt ended up..erm..hehe..actually u oso shldn hv eat,in another words i shldn hv baked n make cookie n chocolate cos u stil coughing..like getting worse..haiz..how cum i overlook tis..wat a lousy gf..the cookie cannot keep long de..cos i didn use a plastic bag to seal it so cannot keep long..i think mayb tml u can throw it le..i'm ok wif it..i dun wan ltr u eat le stomachache..haha..n u oso cnt eat..hehe..dear,happy 3rd month anniversary..!!!i still rmbr u promise me to acc me go shopping n make a pair of new spect..hehe..waiting 4 the day u r free...
i went to wei hse make cookie,make the kitchen a bit messy ar..sorry wei..i was like alot of thing 2 do..baked cookie,make chocolate,wrap the gift..the wrapper i last min den manage to find the type i wan..i find 4 a long tm..so u hlp me to clean up..thanks alot!!muack..if nt 4 ur hlp,i duno wat the cookie will look like..u hlp me alot..teaching me..i spend hrs doing,u watch me for hrs..c anytit went wrong..really thanks alot..n ESPECIALLY THANK TO WEI JIE TOO..thank 4 "HELPING" me wen i v busy by keep interrupting...thanks alot ar..u only dare 2 do tat wen i'm v busy..too busy to open my mouth..looking at wei account,i wun say anytit oso..nw u neo how lucky u r 2 hv her..n WEI!!keep all tat rubbish thinking out of ur mind..dun let ur mind run wild..mind keep running to the wild is nt gd..haha...k la,dun joke liao..really thanks alot..
yest is oso our class bonding..ok la..quite fun chatting..wif mrs quek oso..bomber squad went,ayu group some cum,EE tat group cum bt went hm after a while n the guys,karmila grp cum too..keep eating n chatting..say like class bonding bt nt really like is more like 'groups' bonding..nt every group can bond wif each other lor..so only some groups bond..haha..some group a bit too 'CUTE' v hard to bond..haiz..we r v rough de..so nt v click..over all bonding still ok lor..fun eating n chatting..
Ladies and gentlemen,i'm hereby to present my most cute n lovely dogs--Poppy(big 1-female) and milo(small 1-male)!!!
They are so cute rite!!!Dear always say dog and owner will look alike,cos he have a cute dog too..i always said is that so...Now i totally agreed with what he said..haha...:p
Interact club orientation..
Tuesday was interact club orientation,everything was fine...Just find the process quite fun..At the beginning,there was not alot of people there so the BOD kind of panicked a bit..And for is the first time being a MC,i even more panicked..When it was about to start,people beginning to come..late is better than never..The fun part was the game in charge by Dorothy..she,herself is scared...keep asking me to help her so i tried my best to help her to bring up the atmosphere as people are kind of dead in there..The game is blow wind blow..it is a very common game but surprisingly there are people who don't know how to play..One of our BOD don't know how to play(The one and only guy in BOD-Lian Cheng)i asked him he stay at which mountain or cave..he said he have no childhood..haha..as if..ah gong kia..ok,game started then everything going find who could not find a place to sit then will have qns for them to ans..but dorothy didn't prepared enough qns so we last min pop out a few..our president,Goh Wan Ni,ask who is our club service director and we given her a very obvious clue that is a guy..but she don't know the name,so i give her two choice-1-Lian Cheng,2-Lian Hua(Lotus)..haha..everyone laugh at him lor..even the teacher laugh at him..:p..he hit my head immediately..then is wan ni turn..student have to guess her name..of course we did introduced ourselve in the beginning..is me to give her the choice again..1-Goh Wan ni.2-Goh Ni Ni..haha..she wanted to kill me when i said this..te orientation ended at around 5.30..But when they signing up that time,i'm very sad..cause only 5 people sign up for sphere,Lion Befriender n APSN also win me..each have 1 more than me..all of them take the paper and show off(argh..!!)But overall SPHERE STILL HAVE MORE MEMBER THAN THEM!!!so is ok..is ok..only lose out a bit at orientation..haha..will catch up de..Actually the BODs can more or less click la,everytime gather together,is quite fun joking around..
Dear i love u..muack!!!
Haha..today i'm v happy..cos today morning,wen i was kinda preparing 4 sch..bt in my heart there's a feeling dun feel like going..so kinda do things v slow..den suddenly my phine rung..it cut off after it ring once..den i thought is wei calling or who..so i thinking 2 finish my thing den go c my phone..bt after a few sec the phone rung again..i was quite puzzled..who will keep calling so early in the morning.....GUESS WAT????IS DEAR!!!!!he specially called me n gif me a morning call..i was so happy n shocked..haha..u guy will think tat am i kinda crazy 2 get so happy over tis..bt if u neo his habit u wil find it special..he usually slp at 2 plus or 3am...den wake up around 1+ til 2..the nite b4 we tok on phone almost 2 den i go n slp..he slp ltr den me..so he gif me a morning call at 6 plus which say he slp only 3,4 hrs...of course after tat he wil go back 2 slp..bt at least he make the effort 2 gif me a morning call..cos normally i wil b the 1 giving him the morning call..tis tm is different...hehe...dear..thanks alot..
today we(me,jas,kat,wei,clement,daryl,weijie)went out wif ting oso fun la..the guys join us ltr de..cum find their gf..we gt alot of tit 2 say..alot of crap...hva fun tm at causeway.. long tm didn c her like alot 2 tel her..roday can say everytit goes v well except my health..i keep having stomachache n vomit out the food i hv ate..haiz..bt stil ok la..wun die..n the KDS oso ok..didn bad happened..Thanks god...haha..hope tml will oso go well..tml i hv the interact club orientation..i'm the mc..hope everytit wil goes well..tis is my 1st tm..nw muz pray hard le.. haha..stopping here le..bye!!:-)
PHOTOS!!!
i jus uploaded some pic..show u guys nw...mother day celebration,we went 2 k box!!
ERM.........................
Today is kinda a boring day 4 me...looking after my little devil nephew..haiz...sometime he's really very cute..sometime he can really make my blood boil..no matter how many times i tell him not to do it,he don't seem to understand..but don't why i'm quite sleepy these few days..the number of hours i sleep is around 6-8 is not that bad..but keep feeling sian,wanna rest..i try going out..bt is either my friend not free or we don't know where to go..
Yesterday i meet up with dear..same place at tiong bahru plaza..haha..after his work shop he came n eat dinner with me..haha..he make me eat what i dislike--carrot--no choice hvv to eat it..dear say so ma..haha..since young i dun dare 2 eat carrot..dun like the taste..we meet up 4 around 1 hr plus den he say he wanna go hm le..he's tired..den we headed hm separately..bt suddenly my frenz cal n said wanna buy my another frenz present so i went out again..these 2 days is kinda sian..nothing much 2 do..every1 dun seem to b free..haiz..thinking of mon got happy n oso sad..sad is mon i hv KDS!!!!!die liao..the tacher super strict lor..n my typing so slow duno will get any scolding from her anot..hopefully wun get any..she make me so scare of going her lesson.. den happy is we will be meeting ting!!!haha..hardly can c her le..ever since she went to RP..miss the day wen we r together..lesson ending at 3..den we go find her..haha..actually tis sem our timetable is really super short lor..until we kinda hv alot of spare tm..duno do wat..sometime we can go walk walk together..bt sometime they will be meeting bf so i hv 2 go hm lor..or find other programme..nw having headache to prepare the speech 4 the interact club orientation..k la,stopping here..update some other day...
Thinking.....
Sitting down n really think..it sound easy bt is nt really easy wen u r doing it..ppl r alw too busy n think n listening 2 wat their heart is telling them..ppl tend 2 listen 2 other ppl n 4get 2 listen 2 ur own heart..slowly slowly ppl wil take over ur heart..some decision might b hard,is different from other ppl thinking,against rules..bt as long as is nt doing any bad thing is ok..some ppl may think tat wat u do is wrong,is jus tat they dun understand ur stand..doing something against ur heart is something v terrible,painful n ltr on u wil regret 4 nt doing it in wat u believe..true frenz will gif u some advice bt wun force u go their way as 2 them ur happiness is their main concern..last tm i duno..i mean well bt end up doing tit wrongly,hurting my frenz..making them go my way..den wen i was in trouble..feeling lost of wat 2 do..1 of my frenz told me her opinion..den i asked her,so i hv 2 follow ur advice?she said"to me,in the end did u follow my advice is nt impt..wat i concern more is u r happy..n tat's all..wat decision u made in the end u r facing it..so other ppl cannot force u go their way cos they r nt suffering in ur place if things went wrong.."tat senrence really is like a wake up call 2 me..wen u r helping ppl r u trying 2 put ur thinking inside other ppl head..the person interest in the most impt things..
So maybe u can take some time n sit down listen 2 ur heart..wat's inpt 2 u..wat u really care..
~*BOMBER SQUAD!*~
Yest went 2 celebrate jen's birthday..the bomber squad bring along their bf so is kinda big group of ppl..we went to yuki yaki..haha..hv a great tm making ice cream..we until the ice cream..erm.. haha,..taste a bit weird..every1 find it so gross..haha..
i n dear bought a couple t shirt..he bought 2..n 2 4 me..hehe..we hv couple shirt le..dear 1 is black n white..mine is the blue(dear fav colour) n beige...gal 1 only gt 3 colour...blue beige n pink..i dun wan pink cos ppl always say wen i wear pink look like xiao mei mei..;-( i dun wan..some more is too sweet le ba..i dun match pinky stuff..yest happen alot of tit ba..i n dear tok alot le..i wanna apologise 2 dear..i'm sorry..i love u..muack...i'll keep my promise..
i hope ting wil b ok by nw..haiz..relationship really nd alot of effort..n nd the both side if nt the another side wil feel v tiring n lonely..muz keep note r u REALLY putting enough effort in..dun jus say got wat..think carefully b4 u tok..really..is tat enough...i really hope tat bomber squad relationship al wil b fine..so far so gd lor..shld b getting beta nx tm..al of them seem stable..haha..
stopping nw...lastly..JENNIFER TWANG!!!HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HOR!!!muack muack..luv ya..hope u like the present..love from bomber squad..
Irritated+unwell=Bad mood
these few day kinda a bit easily get irritated...duno y..my eye is really giving me alot of problem.. my left eye start 2 get swollen..even blinking i will feel the pain..oh my god...let alone of putting my contact lens...my eye hv been red since a few days ago..den itchy oso..AH.......my eye bcum smaller lor..den a bit swollen..keep feeling sleepy..v tired..bt at nite bcum quite alert..stupid man..
dear borrow some vcd from me...i recommended DESCENT..v nice..although is a bit gross...i passed it 2 him around 10 plus at nite..meet him at mrt..we chat 4 a while only cos he say his frenz waiting 4 him upstair..we ended our conversation..erm..tat was a tues...
this coming sat is celebrating jen bdae lor..going out 2 eat bt hvn decide whr..cos fm dun wan eat steamboat he say v smelly after tat...haha..den the bomber squad find it v funny...a guy complaining..wen we gal didn say a single tit...bt nvm..we go whr oso can..every1 will b bringing our bf..so there wil b 12 ppl..
oh..suddenly remember sometit..i return the form..the 1 jas n i were selected..nt going le..mrs quek ask y i dun wan..i jus say i really cnt..jas oso back out le...today's tm seem 2 pass v slow..i feel so bored..somemore today ended at 12pm..so early..nothing 2 do..bomber aquad got sometit on..jas meeting her mum n bf..den tml end even eariler..11am..i duno wat 2 do leh..jas say daryl picking her up after sch..den i tit xian meeting jie oso ba..kat of course meeting clement lor..jen duno wat she doing..haiz..mostly meeting bf..i tit i go hm slp lor..always envy jas sia..daryl wil pick her up wenever he can..1 wk a few tm ba..haha..xian bf straight away walk into ur sch fetch her..he studying at dover..al the way 2 bishan..wa...alone at train around 40 min..plus the walking tm ar..shld b an hr..haha..these few days keep seeing him coming...haha..so sweet.. although he sometime seem v blur..bt can c he dote on xian alot..kat ar..clement waiting 4 her at hm..haha..or they wil b going out..i tit almost everyday...
really nothing much 2 write..hehe..cos nothing much happening..so talk more on my frenz..haha..k la,continue nx tm ba..
4 may 06
thursday 10 pm
SCHOOL STARTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my...today is my 1st day of sch of my yr 2...sianz...1st day we al(bomber squad) trying 2 b late 4 sch le..haha..bt its seem tat we r lucky..we reach sch around 8.45 bt we stil nt late yet as it started late..haha...it suppose 2 start at 8 bt bcoz of the new intake so everytit was delay..al the yr 2 hv 2 go 2 auditorium..den mrs heng called my name n jas n some of my classmates..the whole admin department 20 student wil b choose 2 hlp out in a event..i n jas was selected..kinda shocked..we r thinking 2 back out on tis..cos the tm a bit tight..is like a 6 day event tit..everyday after sch hv 2 go expo hlp out..do the preparation tit...wa..wil die sia..bt oso feel tat is a rare opportunity..shld i gif it up anot..tml is the road show 4 the interact club..haiz..i'm involve again.. i'm alw involve in tit sometime i dun even neo..so many interact club tit coming..AH!!!!
den ltr wil hv the Y camp tit..3D2N..sound like chalet ar..haha..bt nt really la..i'm trying 2 persuade my bomber squad pei me...haha..cos i gt no choice hv 2 go bt they can choose..hehe..hope tat they wil go cos oso nt enough ppl ma..
SUPPOSED 2 meet dear yest BUT he 4got tat he meeting me den he meet his frenz le..so we didn meet up..he got call n apologise la..at 1st kinda angry de bt hearing him say sorry n begging me dun b angry is so funny...he always can make me laugh wen i'm angry...quite smart ar..act until so ke lian..like cannot dun forgive him like tat..bt actually i kinda expected liao so stil ok la..mentally prepare a bit le..so nt tat shock..haiz..tis whole wk i tit his schedule is packed le ba.. heard him saying like everyday like gt sometit on.. tat pic is dear n me taken during our installation..he's the outgoing board..i'm the incoming de...haha..discover it myself how 2 add a pic in..ask jas they al hlp me so long hvn do..haha..nvm..i figure out le..hehe..going 2 stop here le...kinda tired jus came back from sch..:-P
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