Life changes....
Life changes for me these few weeks...unexpected one..things happened that made me lost..i just feel is somehow different..things don't always turn out the way it should..like people say life is unpredictable..don't expect much,if not you will be the one end up crying,hurt or lost when things went wrong..people are always so insensitive to other people..taking things for granted..or should i say this is human??MY WARNING FOR EVERYONE....please please pay attention to your loved ones,friend or whatever..because of your insensitive you can really hurt the person deeply..if you don't think so,then wait till is your turn..
WHAT MORE WORSE THING EVER HAPPENED TO ME IS MY HANDPHONE SPOILT!!!!i want to cry..why must it happened to me when i'm broke???why why why?tell me please..someone tell me.....But lucky that a person that i always bully have extra phone to lent me if not i really don't know how to contact all my friends...if anyone notice i long time didn't messeng u,please send me your contact number!!!!!!!i lost most of my contact..i promise my that friend i TRY not to bully him so often...trying to cut down..hahaha.....
Today christmas eve,i'm spending my time with terrence...haha...in the afternoon i went to his mother house to have lunch then went out to find his friend but half way through he's too tired then he went home..i now using his laptop now to update my blog....oh,by the way...for all the KPOs..(basically is wendy wun wei xian..hahaha...)he like the watch!!!hahaha...
I bought this watch for dear!!!he need this for his NS...After i bought this i can declare bankrupt!!! Have to eat bread and drink plain water everyday...haiz..haha..but i'm very happy that i bought this watch for dear..hope he like it...before he went NS he keep saying about this watch..he likes it..This watch is my christmas present for him..hope he like it...hehe....
I also going for the graduation night with kat and jas as the rest don't want to go...One don't want to spend money on dress,another don't want to wear dress...haiz..but hope the graduation night will worth our money not too boring or things like that...My sec sch graduation night was really very very fun so i hope this round will be the same...hahaha...And by the way,i already confirm meeting dear everyday when he book out...hahaha...he say i must accompany him...of course i will...haha..i think after that he book out will be on january...hehehe...stopping here...
Dear Booking out SOON!!!!!!!Dear called me every night..hahaha..this is really not what i expected seriously...i thought he will fall asleep immediately when lights out..so really very happy to hear his voice every night..but really scare he going to run out of batt soon...he said is not really tough inside..is it maybe because just started??most people went in felt that is very tough or because he always go jogging all that so is easy for him to get adapt over there...Feeling really happy to hear his voice and know that everything is fine inside..KEEP telling him to be more careful as he hurt his toe before he went NS...I'm like a mother,keep worrying this and that..haha..making me feel very old like that..
He will be booking out on 22 dec!!!i'm so lucky as on that day is my off day...so able to go find him..he going back in on 25 dec but don't know is morning or evening...on 24 dec i'm off again!! If possible i hope i can spend the christmas eve with him..this will be our first christmas spending together..Don't know is he free or not...hmm....waiting for the day to come...
22 DECEMBER 2006..Later going down bugis help dear check out the price to fix his watch..thinking to buy christmas present for him too!!!never thought that he will be able to come out on christmas so now have to plan what to buy for him....ok la,going to do my assignment..tata....
Dear went army....On Saturday 9 Dec 2006,i send dear to Tekong for his NS service..i meet dear at 8 am as he has to report at Pasir Ris at 9am...We went to eat delifrance with his uncle,aunty,sister and mother.. Kind of a bit scare at that time as first time see his uncle and auntie..But the uncle was very friendly..like to joke..so make me relax a bit..there's alot of thing pop out last minute when we reach the Pasir Ris Interchange then the officer tell us that cannot wear slipper..Dear's uncle and auntie were wearing slipper..so have to find shoe for them to change..haha..everyone was like panick..haha..But dear's uncle was smart to notice that the malay family there was a man wearing slipper so he asked the officer why..the officer say if is the parent,out of goodwill they will allowed them to pass..so his uncle asked dear's mother to exchange shoe with his wife..haha.. What a great idea..everythings solve as his uncle have a pair of shoe in his car..so just have to rush to get it..then everything goes well...
We went around looking around at the place they sleep and try out the food..actually ok la,not that bad..but dear don't like it..maybe having too much good food before NS,that's why..haha.. He will be booking out 22 Dec...really hope can meet him..but he say see first..sad..
Actually say the truth,i do scare that dear going army may change something in our relationship..Before NS,we didn't really meet up often..as he was busy with other things..a little bit sad of course..hoping to spend a little more time with him but come and think of it..i'm not the only thing in his life..he wanted to spend more time with friend and doing time that he like most..so i also don't want to force him..don't want any unneccessary argument before NS.. The time that he with his friend increased greatly which made me feel a bit neglected in fact..Did try to talk to him but he don't really seem keen to come out so i forget about it..
On wed,6 dec, supposed to fetch me after school and go walk walk around but didn't see him when lesson end..so gave him call then found out that he's still sleeping..he asked me to go his house find him..so i went..stay a while in his house,have a nice talk with 2 of his sister then we went for dinner..after dinner,i went back home..he go play soccer,i go fetch my nephew..the next 2 days hardly talk on phone as he said he's at chalet so won't be calling me..i do feel a little a distance start to appear..i don't know why..sometime felt that he don't really want to talk on phone...Am i thinking too much?i don't know..There are 3 possible things MIGHT happened when he book out..
Firstly,if when he book out but he's too busy to meet me,how am i going to face it?What should i say??If one day his feeling for me fade,what should i say or do...
Secondly,things stay the same like now...sometime he meet me for a while,sometime don't...
Thirdly,Things get better..like people say,"distance make hearts grow fonder"..hope that will happen...haha..human are greedy,always hope for the best to happen...
All these are just what i said MIGHT happened..I'm not saying that i will change my heart or what...I WON'T CHANGE...my love for him did not change at all..Love is like a plant,you need the sunlight and water to keep it alive...Don't think that without any one of these the plant can survive..sunlight and water is the basic need..Without it,plant will die..Sunlight is the love,water is care..you need both..Giving too little,the plant will not be healthy..so must give the right amount..every night hear his voice really brighten up my day..knowing that he is doing well inside and still remember to call me..i'm really very happy...i thought he will be too tired and fall asleep..i really appreciated the effort..dear,i love you..haha..hope to see that effort when you book out^_^stopping here..bye bye...waiting for him to come out on 22 dec....
To dear---hope that when 20 feb 2007,you will remember the promise you made...^_^
End Of Year Soon......
This year going to end soon...I have been thinking what happened this year..good and bad..I got to know dear this year february..Time flies..now already end of the year..Now project have some changes..At first there are 6 persons in a group,now split into half..ya..maybe is a better choice,lesser argument..as long as you all are comfortable with the group i'm ok with it..i also don't want this to affect our friendship..
Dear going to NS this saturday...hope everything will turn out fine for him..During NS don't know will there have any changes??hopefully no..I also pray hard he will be safe and sound in NS..Now i sound like a old grandmother...i know sometime i'm a bit nagging but i really worried about you..Sometime you didn't really notice things that you should...that's why i'm really worried..But there's nothing much i can do either..
Hope next year will really be a better year..Not saying this year is not a good year but alot of things happened...
I'm so tired now...really...my eyes are heavy and a bit swollen..feeling weird too..Haiz..Did things change?I really wonder..the more I wonder,the more i'm scare...That kind of feeling i don't know how to say...All i know is i'm really tired now.....Mind keep thinking and thinking..think until i'm so tired...but i just can't stop..My face are pale..so in another way, i'm just like walking zombie or a ghost..life sometime is so complicated,sometime is simple....Sometime is beautiful,sometime is ugly...sometime is bitter sometime is sweet...When is ugly,you'll think of time that are beautiful and hope it will be like then...When is bitter,you'll hope the sweet memories won't make it so bitter...But all this is just what you hope..not very likely will happen..
The previous post i have edited..if you are free can go take a look...take care everyone..
Sunday, December 24, 2006
