sick.....
i didn't went to school today as i was sick..after the sunday service,i think i catch a cold or what.. running nose..headache..giddy..sore throat...everything start coming...haiz...feeling so sick and weak now...the doctor give me two day MC..today and tomorrow...just get inform by wendy that i have one more project coming up...project again..but this project is easier then the rest so still ok...i think my attendence in school is quite bad...haiz...will try to improve on it...k la,going to rest le..bye..see tomorrow morning how i feel..if ok,i think i want to go to school...
story....
There's a girl,a very simple and normal looking girl...her childhood is not like other children..dote by everyone but instead she always get bullied for some reason..although there were times that she's fierce in order to defend her,she still believe she should treat others the way she wanted to be treated...people say she was naive..but she don't think so..although there are bad people around in this world but she rather believe those around her is good ones..always put on defence is very tiring..throughout her childhood she's doing that..she don't want to carry on like that for the rest of her life..She's lucky..those around are indeed the good ones..dote by friends..always be there for her..She always feel that her heart is very heavy..she cannot turn to anyone..not because she don't trust,she always feel that if she said out something will happen..she's very emotional..tears was like part of her life..she hate this..Whenever she shed a tear,she felt herself very useless and weak..she don't want to be a burden to anyone..people always say,you always never think and put your whole heart in in regardless of friend or love..don't be so stupid..she tried to be patience with people as long as is within her limit..people sometime start to take forgranted..they do something and expect her to accept it or never spare a thought for her... sometime she felt that her feeling have been neglected..useless her,will start crying as feeling hurt and sad..but who cares?people won't notice..people won't change..sometime she wonder she have been trying to give the understanding,patience,tolerence,support or whatever so..but why people never give her what she want...just sparing a thought of how she feel..
If you thinking what about the family?family don't support her emotionally?what's funny is..she cannot be sad in her family..in her family no one will show sadness..she's also wonder why is that so..other family member never get sad before?a question never get answer..once,she show her sadness,stress..everything out..guess what..she get scolded and warn to stop crying..no console, no concern..she find weird...really weird..that's why she don't feel really close bond with the family...her family background is very complicated that's why the family is different from others..no one except her family know how complicated it was..cause they never say...
What do you think of this girl story?she's stupid..?that's what i think...family is really weird.. cannot be understand..this girl you all don't know her cause i don't really know her well too... sorry if i have bored you with this story..
Just another day.....
today going to do project with jen and wei....i'm going to change blogskin so please don't misunderstand anything..i choose the skin because i like the pic...i don't mean anything else...things are fine...wei is helping me to change it...these few days everything seem quite boring...really..haiz...keep feeling something wrong but....kinda confused..maybe changes are needed...
Trying to adjust back to school life...during holiday have been working..finding it very difficult to wake up at 6 plus now...sianz..trying to make my life busy ba..if not kind of feel a bit lonely..haha...don't know is it mood swing..you know.....girl's thing...rushing projects..ENT,TKS and ADM...haiz...headache..then arranging interacters to attend talks tomorrow..no one reply..hope that they will turn up if not i die...have to go...next week i think have sphere ba...i'm in charge this time round..have to think of game all that again...the last time didn't end really that good,a bit messy...so this time my turn hope it will at least better a bit..mrs goh is back..she gave birth to a son...v cute..see him once in school when mrs goh came and visit us...teacher ask me and dorothy to identify potential leaders from sphere...haha..both of us find it very difficult...for me i think they are two indian girls that are not bad...can consider...too bad stefanie and coreen is not in sphere...they do have the potential...
k la,that's all in my life this few days...update again...probably after weekend...cya den...
what a bad day...........
Today....LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!!haha..nothing really very special la but just started school not long then late for school again...but there are good news also...bombers is ok now..everything solve liao...no worries le..accompany wendy to renew her PDL...then head to her house...when we alight the bus,we found that our shirt is dirty...black powder or ash kind of thing...we were so shock and don't know when we got it...
Few days ago was kind of sad but now feeling better le..my mind feel more relax now...visited City Harvest...a good experience..enjoy the trip there...haha..k la..ending here..update again..
My 5th month anniversary!!!!!
today is dear and me 5th month aniversary but we celebrated it yesterday as i need to work today...we went to east coast park there,a japanese restaurant,ZEN...the food there is quite nice...this restaurant is recommended by STEFANIE and COREEN(dear,don't forget again...)they were working there so when we got there,coreen opened the door for us already..i was quite surprised..then the both of them serve us which dear and i feel very weird as we know each other but acted like we don't know...they talk to us very formally and polite..haha..a bit weird the feeling...but everything is great there...the food and the atmosphere...haha..the mashed potatoe is soooooo.......nice...haha...dear say i cannot taste those special food...i don't taste the different..what's ingredient inside..i'll learn how to cook de..don't say me don't know how to cook next time you eat what..haha..when i learn make sure you must eat finish..we enjoy ourselves alot..sit there talking and joke...only the two of us...dear,u really help me to lighten up my stress..i feel much better..haha..you brighten up my day...if not i don't know whether will i still stressing....love you...muack!sorry to drag you down..like you told me think of the happy things,don't think of the sad things...some things i don't have control and i also can't control.. now there's nothing i can do..just wait and see how things goes..cause the say is not with me now...ok ending le...lastly is...DEAR HAPPY 5TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!
Stay cool..........
Things now still ok for me..taking it easy...sorry to make anyone of you worried for me...and thanks alot...don't have to worry for me le...^_^
Saturday,dear suddenly called me and ask me to meet him at bugis..claiming that he want to buy something so after work i went down to find him..he was at the arcade..he seemed so serious when he played game...BUT after that....haha..is not that case..after playing game he asked me whether i'm hungry or not..i told him i don't feel like eating..he said he not hungry also..but we ended up at mos burger...he could not finish his food which i found it a bit weird as the meal is not alot..just a small burger and a small pack of fries....what happened later on was unexpected to me....WASA!!!!!this is what he keep saying..he said have a secret to tell me,asked me to come near...then he will shout "WASA!!!" and ran off...i was kind of irritated for the whole night...keep wondering "why he like to irritate me so much today" when i was quite tired and not really in the good mood...he was so different from usual dear..he's serious and sometime joke a bit...he will know when to do what...he won't laugh until non stop that kind...but on that night i see another side of him...hahaha...kind funny...and very lame of the things he telling...keep telling me lame jokes and the "WASA"...i don't know to laugh or what...he told me why breadtalk call breadtalk...and pressing the traffic light button and say "WASA" it will become green man..(i didn't do that la..haha)just felt that dear is different..haha...he laugh until he have stomach cramp...but he do all these there are reason behind it de...only when he told me then i realised... thanks dear...haha...helping me when my problem...muacks!!!
bomber sqaud-there's nothing we can't solve k...bombers won't spilt de...don't bear grudge... we talk then after forget about all the unhappiness k...i'm not trying to restrict you all but can keep using F*** when mentioning our problem can...don't sound quite nice and i don't want things go worse.....friend forever k?ending here..and thanks dear for giving me morning call today morning!!!!!!
don't want to think about it..
Recently things don't seemed to goes really well....really tired..don't wanna care much le..recently like keep quarreling wif my mum...can't get well...she keep picking on me,i don't even know why..i don't want to quarrel with her iso i choose to ignore her...scold whatever she want...then yest didn't go and do project with the bombers as there were some last min changes they made which i can't make it...sorry...feeling there were people piss off all that...i,too wanna do the project so don't say as if i don't care much...showing attitube to me all that,i would rather you say out as i don't feel like reading body language and things like that...my holiday is gone, working and working...rushing projects all that..i would rather spend more time in completing the project then pissing off things...talk out please..
and one thing..please don't give up on ur happiness wendy wun wei xian...u know it yourself,who treat u the best...love you the most..the let the past repeat again...ok,going to stop here le...bye..
sleepy gal....
world cup finally over!!!ok,actually it doesn't really concern me as i don't watch soccer...looking at more than ten guys running after a ball don't really interest me....sorry soccer lover...BUT the final i actually go and watch....my friend drag me along..even i came up with lots of excuses they don't seem to accept any..haha...so i surrender...Italy won..oh my god..don't really like them after i see the match..so fake..like to pretend alot..ok i have to admit almost half of the match i'm sleeping...cos i really can't take it...only when people shout "GOAL!!!" then it wake me up...i went to DXO to watch as is near my working place...dear sorry that i didn't inform you earlier..is a last min decision...i promise next time i'll inform you immediately...reach home in around 6 plus in the morning..half dead...what i get from world cup is dark circle..eye bag..haha..ok la..anyway is over...dear waited for me the whole night as he ask me to call him when reach home..so immediately after the match i called him..he didn't sleep at all..wait for me..sorry dear..keep u waiting for so long...ok ending here...tomorrow still have to work...bye
updating now!!!!
sorry for didn update for so long...quite busy recently...last thurs i meet dear go queensway buy things...den we meet my sis in law to go basa malam(don't know hw to spell)...then from thurs til sun i went for camp...actually overall quite fun..the client i look after all although sometime he's quite naughty..keep running away..(end up i scold him once,he became very good..)this show that sometime scolding do work..haha..but i didn't scold him really very fierce just kinda say him...by the way..my client is 34 years old...the camp lasted 3 days..when the 3rd day comes,i'm like half dead..he's too active..i looked after him like 24 hrs...when he eat,bathe(i wait outside,didn't went in ok),play games,brush teeth...wow..but overall is ok la..fun...know some friends from simei ite...etty,kishore..etc..then the next day,mon,is my working day!!!i'm so tired..even until now...sun when i went home i slept almost the whole day...just wake up to eat and bathe...tues(yest),i meet joy to go bugis to buy shirt from OP but unfortunately there's no more size that she want..she buying for her boyfriend..so sweet ar..haha..hope to get some staff discount from my friend too but she transfer to jurong point...joy..fated la..cannot get staff purchi meet ut with the bomber squad to do project...THEN JENNIFER TWANG didn turn up...say until so loudly that time "rac,when is your off day,we all go out and do project TOGETHER"...when that day come,where are you miss?aiya,forget about it..just don't do it the next time k...if not,you going to get it from me..for sure...haha...mon i also meet dear as is his friend birthday he ask me along after i finish my work at ten...sit there drinking and talking..then discover most of them in the same school as me but i never see them before..quite a fun time talking to them...then for now....I'M WORKING!!!haha..but there's no customer so i use this chance to update my blog..cos after work go home i'm sure to tired to switch on my computer...later after work meeting dear too...should be ba..as he ask me afer work call him... gtg le..working
