Dear birthday!!
On that day,dear came my house and fetch me.He played with my dog from sunny to rainy..At first weather was fine then the longer we dragged,the worse is the weather.Actually for me is quite rush cause I want to bring him to Paris International Buffet Restaurant.his lunch time end at 4pm..at that time was already 2pm..I bring only one small little umbrella which supposedly enough for a person. Feeling weird why i only bring one?CAUSE I ONLY HAVE ONE FOLDABLE UMBRELLA!!but dear say is ok..but then later is NOT OK ...we went down to orchard as i wanted to bring him watch movie and have the buffet..When we reach there, is like raining
CATS AND DOGS. So we use the small umbrella trying to walk over to cineleisure.When we are waiting for the traffic light I saw the opposite side when the car went passed,the water that accumulate at the roadside will splash up to the path.The wave is big..Then i told dear that later we stay away from that side then he say ok..When we were there,dear were very careful holding me far away from the roadside that i said...For your information,is a cross road...so left and right is also car...We stood there and waited,i saw my shirt was dirty so i wanted to tell dear that is dirty......JUST WHEN I WANT TO OPEN MY MOUTH,A STUPID IDIOTIC BUS WENT BY,THE WATER SPLASH RIGHT FROM MY HEAD TO TOE!!!!!!!!!dear only get half of his body wet...but i was drenched..totally...is so damn gross!!!!dirty water from roadside...i was so shocked when that happened..i was thinking how come the rain get so big like people taking a pail and pour water on me...oh my god...Then we went to cinelersure to buy movie ticket..dear asked me to buy new shirt as i'm totally wet...i was like shivering so really no choice havr to buy a new shirt..after buying the tickets we going Ngee Ann City at first intend to eat Paris International Buffet Restaurant but we didn't make it on time for the lunch..so we eat Breek instead..the mashed potato is soo..... nice.....i like it alot...yummy..haha...then we go library as we were still early for the movie...After the movie dear went to meet his Youth Council friend then i went back home..That's all for his birthday....
My brain dead........
Dear and me 9 months le!!!!!haha....he going to NS soon...sobs...our next month cannot celebrate as he already in the army..haiz..sure to miss him alot..
I'm really really really very tired now..I almost everyday only sleep 4 hours..i have been rushing dear present till 2 plus almost everyday....and i also rushing to complete the translation of my script for College Sphere Event...English translate to chinese is really not a easy task...My whole week is so packed...Tomorrow i have to go to MacPherson ITE for the rehearsal of the College Sphere...Then on Friday is the actual event..have to reach before 12...Then saturday i'm working..Sunday go out woth bombers to celebrate dear birthday...On Monday,his birthday,i'll be celebrating dear birthday with him...so i have no time left,must faster finish his present..after today don't know i can find time to do or not..
My head is dead now..having AOA now but really can't concentrate much....haiz..next week is the CA..die liao...
My eyes like panda and i'm like a walking zombie..haha...ok la,stopping here le,have to do assignment now..tata...
Tired tired tired....
These few weeks have been rushing dear's present...so scare that i won't be able to finsh in time..next week i'll be busy with the college sphere event...already didn't see dear for a week..miss him but he can't meet me..haiz..never mind..when he can meet me then meet me lor..before that he keep playing game then can't meet me then he hurt his big tie few days ago..he went to see a doctor..the doctor took out the nail as it already cracked..dear is resting at his aunt house so i can't visit him...i think maybe our anniversary we are not going out as don't know is it ok for him to walk..now he everyday will stay at his aunt house during day time..just hope that he can get well soon..he also going army soon..This period that he can't meet me take it as a training period...life without him..haha...
By the way,my problem are solve so don't worry for me le...thanks...^_^
Is everything goes haywire or what......
Things don't really goes well in my life???erm...am i making things worse or things did really goes wrong..don't know..extra sensitive??i'm trying to talk to you all for the last 2 hours or rather from last thursday onward but you all don't seem to be listening to what i'm talking..i really do feel neglected..but maybe to you all i just showing attitude that's all..you all just leave me aside...i'm just upset about that..anyway you all don't seem to bother too..at least i expected someone to understand me but she didn't..thinking i'm showing attitude too..i always try to understand you all..This time i really hope you all can understand but i don't think so..no one asked why i behaving this way...really feel i don't belong to you all..rather sad but true...Do friends change?i don't know now...
Feeling lost....
Just finishing quarreling with my mum and bro..Why always is my fault...why everytime have to drag people who are not related in...The child is not mine..i'm just helping out,and i have make myself very clear that when you want me to help u ask me..don't just think that i'm free...Did i change i did not know...If i really change is it the day that you said your own daughter seducting guys outside?or is you said i was indecent thing outside?Are you trying to say your daughter is a prostitute?Since young when did i ever create any trouble outside...why suddenly withdraw all your trust on me??What did i do....All of you is starting making me to hate you...Always want me to sacrific this and that..if the child is mine,would you all help me?bother about me?i have sacrific my O level because of you all!!!!No matter what i do,i'm always wrong..if you think is not big then what for you ask me to study...when i was studying my O level...u scolded me...u say study very big ar...no need do house work...i did do...i after school still have to rush home and look after baby,you think that's easy??after that i have to do house work before i can study..did you notice what time then i can study???After 7!!!How tired i am do you know that..While other people were enjoying outside,i'm looking after baby which is not mine!!!You all are my family so i don't mind...i carry on helping even though is very near to my "O"..When i got my FUCKING result what you all say.....you la,didn't study get this kind of grade...Did you ever look at my result before the baby was born???i'm always in the top 10!!My grade drop straight down...Who cares?who appreciate my effort???Now i get so sick of it..i want to get free of all this...i started to let go...you said i change...you change too...you said all that hurtful words that you never said to me before...say i'm flirting around out...i just go out with my friends,you said i want to flirt...My friend are girls!!!you don't seek for the truth before you said anything...You never bother to ask..Everything is you said then is correct...my work load also very heavy..not only you...why i don't want to tell you my schedule..my free days you all will want to make me look after baby...i don't want!!!you all make me so scare to stay at home and starting to hate this place....we just cannot communicate right now...To you all,i'm always wrong...have problem will come find me..when nothing,start picking on me...i'm really very tired of this kind of life....All the quarrels..last time,all of us each other freedom..we know our limits...Now you all keep taking away my freedom...i always have to put a shield...really very very tired...i want to get out of this house but i know you won't let me...you said i'm a adult now then treat me like one...going out til 10 plus at night you start scolding me....i went out at 6pm...last time i went out til midnight you won't scold...i know my limit...i never cross the line...now you keep pushing the line more and more toward me...making me suffocated...when my school deduct the school fee,you come and scold me..you said you want to deduct by giro and now become my fault...you want me to dig money for you no matter what..At that point of time,my heart is breaking..how come you have become like that???you never said this type of thing to me before...everyone come and scold me..making you so upset...then what about me?i'm not a human?when i'm sick you didn't even bother...never mind..i know i'm a big girl now everything cannot always go to you..i try settle myself..then you said i everything didn't tell you...i tell you,you don't bother...
I'm all alone and i'm fine with it...i'm always alone isn't it...you make me so independent when i'm young...What you all comment doesn't matter to me anymore...what you all do i give you support then when come to my thing..what did you give...tolerance have reach the limit....
That's it....
Bad DAY!!!!!!
Monday i have mense cramp and i fainted in school(so malu..)I think i attracted alot of attention as i was sitting on the office chair(with wheels) then my bombers push me to the sick bay(thanks gals)..Everyone is looking at me...but i don't care much...the pain is killing me..i feel like dying..Bombers called dear to fetch me home as all my family members were working...When at the sick bay,alot of teachers came to see me..keep asking me to hold on...(sound like i'm dying..) i was so painful that i can't open eyes..then i heard dear voice,he keep calling me but i was too painful to answer him..then i carry me to take to the cab that waiting outside...(Wow,dear so strong to carry me...for your information..i'm not very light...)
