Frustration!!
I hate to say this but i have to admit that,I feel like i'm a totally nobody in the office.I have this strong feeling when i was in the meeting today. I feel so not needed in the meeting as when i tried to say something,will be cut off. That's irritating. Then when is time for next meeting and we still could not finish, my boss say I can stay there as I was not key person in the meeting..so in the sense i was not needed. SO WHY ASK ME TO ATTEND? As the meeting carry on,the warehouse delivery issue was brought up. This incident I have inform and explain to my manager before the meeting and when the incident happened i wxplain to her too. When this matter brought up,she said actually she do not really understand what happened. I was really shock as I explain to her twice and ask her do her understand what i'm saying,she say she do. So I was thinking,do I have a problem of making myself clear or she was not really listening to me 100%.. When in the meeting people talk or ask about inside sale thing, all of them was looking at my colleague only. I was like invisible.
Seriously speaking,I do feel like i was not needed at all. My colleague can handle every single thing and moreover not all things I was told including problem with customer-I don't even know until when it was mention in the meeting. I was like doing all those small small things only-making calls,key orders etc..
I'm not angry with anyone but just kinda frustrated about myself(why did I make myself in this kind of situation)I have never feel so "nobody" before. That kind of feeling "actually you don't really needed here" is making me feel frustrated. I'm havinga serious thought am I suitable in this job?who knows..
Whatever.I'm just waiting for my holiday that's all..
Labels: frustration
Wednesday, July 02, 2008