Life r so short................
Two days ago,milo died...jus now poppy died...within 3 days i have lost my 2 dogs...why?why? Thinking back not long ago,i was playing with them secretly..cos my brother dun like them to cum out as they will dirty the place..i was caught by him playing with the dogs..he scolded me.. both of us quarrel..we were yelling at each other..they always said that i'm very dirty..the dogs jumps on me..i like hugging them like soft toy..i like the smell of them although everyone in the family felt that is very smelly..recalling last time,during weekend,poppy will jumps onto my bed in the morning to wake me up n milo is too short to jump up on my bed,he will try to reach up n keep barking at me...want me to carry him up..and i will carry the both of them..hug them..den my sister will start yelling..'Dogs are not allow on the bed!!!'all these memories like happened not long ago..now they are gone..i always get scolding because of them cos everytime i let them out,milo will shit on the floor..as he was not properly train yet...last time i have a dog..shadow.. after an accident,he can't walk..the two legs behind became too weak to support his body..i looked after him for 3 yrs...i keep doing some leg exercise on him and finally he able to stand up for a few seconds..i was so happy then..at that time,wen the accident happened,the vet say the chances that he can recover is quite low..at first he can't even sit,he can only lay there..den slowly he can sit den slowly he can stand a bit..and because of him,i quarrel with my mum countless time..she don't like my dog as when he shit n urine,it will stain on his fur which will be very smelly..i bathe him almost everyday..in order to keep him clean..cleaning him have to take hours..still have to comb his fur..my dog is a labrador..he's so big size..he's weight is over 20kg..so when i carry him and bathe..i was like half dead..really need alot of force..slowly i also get used to it..my mum like hated him alot..she keep saying i face him like face her more..n i treat him like also beta..some time my sister will help me..shadow is from dog unit..my brother used to work there..he brought him to our house..but on the day that he come,he met with an accident..can it say bad luck or what..first day..this kind of thing happened..after a year or so..my family wanted to put him to sleep..and again..i quarrel with them..i refused..i scolded them heartless..cold blooded..i have never quarrel with them until so bad..i keep crying..den i said most to most i pay for his food..i was very angry with my brother at that time..he bring the dog back but i was the one looking after him..whenever we quarrel he wil said "i brought him back",den i will said "u brought him back but i'm the one looking after him..so u have no right to let him die.."but lucky my tears did work..imagine..3 yrs of quarrel over same issue..but in the end..shadow still died..i was quite angry with my mum..really..i dun feel like talking to her...
Haiz..i always dream to have dogs running around my house...but this don't seem quite possible for me..unless i'm not staying there anymore..haha..did think before..when i have the ability,i want to move out..but my mum sure wun allow..she say i can only move out when i get married..haha..so is like only a dream..shadow,poppy,milo...i'll always remember u all..the times we spend together...god bless u...
Thursday, May 25, 2006