Dear went army....On Saturday 9 Dec 2006,i send dear to Tekong for his NS service..i meet dear at 8 am as he has to report at Pasir Ris at 9am...We went to eat delifrance with his uncle,aunty,sister and mother.. Kind of a bit scare at that time as first time see his uncle and auntie..But the uncle was very friendly..like to joke..so make me relax a bit..there's alot of thing pop out last minute when we reach the Pasir Ris Interchange then the officer tell us that cannot wear slipper..Dear's uncle and auntie were wearing slipper..so have to find shoe for them to change..haha..everyone was like panick..haha..But dear's uncle was smart to notice that the malay family there was a man wearing slipper so he asked the officer why..the officer say if is the parent,out of goodwill they will allowed them to pass..so his uncle asked dear's mother to exchange shoe with his wife..haha.. What a great idea..everythings solve as his uncle have a pair of shoe in his car..so just have to rush to get it..then everything goes well...
We went around looking around at the place they sleep and try out the food..actually ok la,not that bad..but dear don't like it..maybe having too much good food before NS,that's why..haha.. He will be booking out 22 Dec...really hope can meet him..but he say see first..sad..
Actually say the truth,i do scare that dear going army may change something in our relationship..Before NS,we didn't really meet up often..as he was busy with other things..a little bit sad of course..hoping to spend a little more time with him but come and think of it..i'm not the only thing in his life..he wanted to spend more time with friend and doing time that he like most..so i also don't want to force him..don't want any unneccessary argument before NS.. The time that he with his friend increased greatly which made me feel a bit neglected in fact..Did try to talk to him but he don't really seem keen to come out so i forget about it..
On wed,6 dec, supposed to fetch me after school and go walk walk around but didn't see him when lesson end..so gave him call then found out that he's still sleeping..he asked me to go his house find him..so i went..stay a while in his house,have a nice talk with 2 of his sister then we went for dinner..after dinner,i went back home..he go play soccer,i go fetch my nephew..the next 2 days hardly talk on phone as he said he's at chalet so won't be calling me..i do feel a little a distance start to appear..i don't know why..sometime felt that he don't really want to talk on phone...Am i thinking too much?i don't know..There are 3 possible things MIGHT happened when he book out..
Firstly,if when he book out but he's too busy to meet me,how am i going to face it?What should i say??If one day his feeling for me fade,what should i say or do...
Secondly,things stay the same like now...sometime he meet me for a while,sometime don't...
Thirdly,Things get better..like people say,"distance make hearts grow fonder"..hope that will happen...haha..human are greedy,always hope for the best to happen...
All these are just what i said MIGHT happened..I'm not saying that i will change my heart or what...I WON'T CHANGE...my love for him did not change at all..Love is like a plant,you need the sunlight and water to keep it alive...Don't think that without any one of these the plant can survive..sunlight and water is the basic need..Without it,plant will die..Sunlight is the love,water is care..you need both..Giving too little,the plant will not be healthy..so must give the right amount..every night hear his voice really brighten up my day..knowing that he is doing well inside and still remember to call me..i'm really very happy...i thought he will be too tired and fall asleep..i really appreciated the effort..dear,i love you..haha..hope to see that effort when you book out^_^stopping here..bye bye...waiting for him to come out on 22 dec....
To dear---hope that when 20 feb 2007,you will remember the promise you made...^_^
Monday, December 11, 2006