You won't understand..........
Not really in a good mood recently,ever since my brother want me to send my dog away..Last sunday,Terrence accompany to Mr Chua's house to pass him my dog..I thought I'll b ok..But in fact I'm not..I played with her at Mr Chua's house for around 2 hours...When i was about time to leave,my heart started to feel the pain..The way she looked at me when i leave,i can never forget that face...I kept crying non-stop ever since i step out of that house...When i leave,she stood at the door step looking at me..She wanted to follow me but Mr Chua hold her back...Then she can just stand there and at me when i walk off...It really hurt me alot alot...I feel i'm so cruel.. Leaving her at a strange place..I really can't bear to leave her..but i have no choice...No one in the family support me..I can only cry and cry..
Next day,I message Mr Chua to see how is she..He said she's ok,finish her food..still very active...she even jumped on him in the morning...I'm relieved to hear that she's ok..But I still missed her alot..I really wonder does she miss me??I cried everyday...But knowing her is ok and Mr Chua have a dog too so she have a company to play with her..And maybe next time she will get pregnant..I just treat her like getting married to Mr Chua's dog..
Yesterday read Terrence's blog,actually quite touched...It actually make my mood feel better..much better...
~To Terrence~
I really appreciate everything that you do..i really do..I'm very touched when I see your blog..Standing up for me...I'm very thankful that you were there when i gave ting ting away...If not i really don't know what to do.. Sorry if I have make you suffer recently...My mood wasn't very stable..I won't say about "the meeting or not" topic again..Sorry to have you stressed up..I waiting for your break to come...both of us can relax a bit...you are quite tired recently because of your deployment...jia you!!After that you can have your break.. and i'll stop my complaining...hahaha..:-)Lastly,really thank you alot alot...love you..
After my dog have gone,I find it hard to face my family especially my brother and sister-in-law...I keep thinking the way they force me to give my dog away...I tried to forget about it but i can't...never really talk to them ever since they want me to give my dog away cos the baby is out soon...staying at home seemed like torturing me...Feeling so sad inside my heart but still have to pretend nothing at work.. really don't feel like smiling or talking...What make it worse when i see my manager and he kept giving me attitube...His attitube have lasted around a month..I really don't know what i do,he refused to talk to me..treat me like a stranger..I really have enough of all these...Whatever he want me to do,I already done it...It was like one night then he change his attitube toward me..I don't gave a damn on this anymore...Anyway my life is quite suck,additional of 1 more thing doesn't make any different too...
"Listen to your heart,although is on the left,is always right."One of my friend told me this..Ya,is quite true...But sometime is so hard to do what your heart told you to do..In your life,is so hard to find someone that will understand how you feel.. really...Everyone will ask you to understand them but not one will come forward to understand you...When every part of your life is wrong,you don't know where you belong..What you treasure the most in the past,maybe the one that kill you now... Memories healed and killed people at different point of time..If you don't understand,when you try it you will know..But of course,i won't hope this type of thing to happen on you...haha...
I think this post is long enough right...hahaha...ok,I'll update next time when i have a chance...Hope next time will be good things..take care evryone!!!
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Sunday, August 05, 2007